Tisa

1.I confess that i "give in" more than i try to control myself 2.I confess that i'm trying to love exercise, as i used to hate it, and am getting a little more fond of it everyday 3. i confess that i my weight loss journey has only been 5 years long but it feel like it's been 100! 4.i confess that i am really scared, and i dont know what i'll do if i can't get surgery 5.i confess that i just want to be a normal person, and im tired of being treated differently and having a completely different life experience than my peers had

o...o i don't think i can bear to see my boobies go, i mean i love them i will be so sad, i just want them to be maybe more... shaped i guess. I am a 40c or d right now, i think one is bigger than the other because one always fits the others like see you bro its too small in here and tries to pop out on me. Maybe it sounds weird but i've had big boobs since i was like in elementary school so maybe its a genetic thing idk ill have to find out

i am from New York, from Dec-March its basically freezing up here 30-0 degrees. I wish i was in south texas sheesh!

well i think its good to have the preop that way at least you have time to adjust to it before the whole thing goes down

hey dont worry its not you, im like a 20 at old navy, 18 at khols and 24 at marshalls. Some skinny people stores i swear the next size up is prolly 1/2 inch bigger its ridiculous.

omg i've changed PCPs so many times before i found a good one. Most of them are very indifferent, i remember one of my doctors just telling me "you need to lose weight you're probably going to get diabetes and die in your forties" and then sending me off. what a noob, thats the thing about doctors, i think most of them only know how to prescribe a pill.

i probably wouldn't have told her, i mean yeah, i wouldn't lie about it to the people in my life, im gonna tell if they ask me.I think she feels all high and mighty that she lost it the natural way. whats so great about the natural way anyway, if you want to ride a bike all the way to Disneyland fine but don't judge me for taking a plane -___-

i just started working out a few years ago, the only advise i can give you is 1. water 2. switch machines every 15-30 mins 3. monitor your heart rate with a watch or smthing to be sure your in the "fat burning" zone

well i guess it was 2 things 1 was that I was having back pain for a few months, and it was like a passive dull pain that always stayed there i just couldnt take being in pain anymore and I started crying and realized it was prolly because of my weight.That was kind of a wakeup call to how the rest of my life would be.The real thing that made me just say "i'm done" is when I joined the swim team, and thinking I was going to lose a whole bunch of weight or at least 20-30 pounds after my 4 month season, and 3 hour a day 6 days a week workouts, watching what I ate, I got on the scale and I had lost nothing... not a pound. Thats when I realized I had to do this because nothing else was going to REALLY work :/ Yeah I could deal with all the otherstuff as i have my whole life, but the fact that i tried to lose weight the blood sweat and tears honest to god way and still failed made me hopeless

Hello lovelies! So I've had a lot of time to think about the surgery, I won't be getting it until April 2014.At first I was like pshhtt i need this surgery yesterday, and i still really want it but I've just been coming to terms with all the less-glamorous parts of WLS.. what is or was you guys biggest fear going into your surgery? Mine is that I will still crave greasy fatty foods after my sleeve, and eat myself back into a hole another is that I won't even be able to handle the pre-op diet let alone the rest of my life last is that I will feel tortured by the new lifestyle and wish I never had it done >____< i think I have a decent level of self-control but I got myself to this point in the first place so really how much can I trust myself?

i completely understand, my family completely trolls me :x lol but im used to it now..They always cook buttery oily food when im trying to eat healthy, they ask me if im hungry and i say no but they make me food anyway, and they always say i need to eat more -___- mind you i dont have the sleeve yet my portion sizes are prolly a bit too large. The thing about my family is they believe food is love, and for a long time so did I :/ but unfortunatly I don't have the metabolism of my half asian sister so I was the one who became obese -sigh- You may have to get away from certain people, try to keep a comfortable distance between yourself and unsupportive people, because at the end of the day you are in charge of who you let affect your life

well the iud isn't 100%, you should be using a condom with it if you want to be absolutely safe.IUD can slip when you lose a lot of weight. 99% seems like a lot but that means they predict if you do the deed 100 times you will get pregnant

Am I the only one who thinks us larger girls have a harder time that skinny girls shaving. I mean we have more leg so we have more hair on that more leg It's just annoying. I hate having to shave my legs every 4 days in the summer .Do you ladies choose other options like waxing, weird cream stuff ect?Or do you just go au natural?

nope, im not white actually im arab, my hair is so thick, and black. my mom says i could make 3 wigs lol. i just wait 4 days until i can't ignore it anymore.

i used to not but now i do it while im at it :<

i dont know about you guys but i cant stand it, and i cut myself really bad with it twice by accident so i have these scars on my arms that look emo, now i dont even want to do it anymore

That'd be so great thank you

right now my bmis 44.5, i have back pain, joint pain. asthma, S.A.D, shortness of breath, . my cholesterol and bp is pretty much normal though

I guess i'll have to call them. I mean honestly i don't want any malabsorption surgeries like bypass . I'll probably be fine NOW, but then I think about when i'm in my granny days and those synthetic vitamins aren't doing what they used to and i think i'd be healthier if i stayed obese.

In theory, could it be possible to just switch over to an insurance that will pay for the sleeve, get the surgery, then switch back to your normal insurance? Would there be consequences for this?Like I said i'm not too insurance savvy.

wow sounds like you've had a bumpy road so far... but that only makes victory that much more sweet in the end goodluck!

how much would it be without airfare & hotel?? i mean standard range? I have like 2000 saved up :x

Hey i defiantly get your point, sometimes I think I shouldn't be doing this either. When I was younger I told myself that if I turned 20 and still didn't lose weight I would get surgery, i never wanted to have surgery honestly I know how serious it is. These days my back hurts everyday in school, and I can't do as well in the sports I love (swimming and track) because my weight really holds me back in all aspects of my life. I don't sleep well . I have asthma, i've suffered from depression because of a Vitamin D deficiency (SAD), and I just don't feel well in general on an everyday basis. I decided I wanted this when I started thinking, how much is my life worth right now?I really understand this will affect my daily life forever even after the weight is gone