Selinathorne

I think you all must be turning into zombies ...lol

Throughout this site I haven't really found people who seem to understand me maybe this is the place-

I am a total food addict.

Addicted to eating and not eating.

I thought maybe I'd started to gain some control over this addiction in the past few months' date=' but this last week has been hell! I'm pre sleeve and today ate a footlong double meatball sub for lunch. Four hours later I still feel sick but can't stop thinking about the refrigerator... Will this end?[/quote']

I know for me i have had a tough time with this. Once getting the sleeve i would have 1 bite of something and then i was finished. My stomach was done. My mouth was not finished tasting the food, my nose was not done smelling it and i certainly did not have that "full/overstuffed" feeling that would tell me i was done. Also, i didn't realize how sedated i was by high blood sugar all the time so i felt stir crazy! I just wanted to eat a huge meal and lay down. I hate going out to eat now because i can't eat what i want. It's frustrating! 2 months out and I'm learning to cope but i was very much addicted to food and still am. It was all i thought about and still do. This surgery keeps me from eating like that so i will learn, I'm learning now. You can too. I don't regret the Surgery at all. I'm glad I'm cut off and pissed. I was killing myself!

And when i say appetizer plate, i mean without the app

I don't want to go to regular restaurants anymore, just fast food. I can find something small off each menu. If i do go out to a nice restaurant though, i just eat my kids and husbands food. I get an appetizer plate and get a couple of bites off each of their plates. You figure it out as you go.

I was eating like nothing happened by week 2. I felt almost like i hadn't had the surgery. I just can't eat near as much! I am so thirsty all the time too! I drink a lot and seek out fruit, especially watermelon. I never ate watermelon before this. I don't eat sugars because they make me sick. Also, i go out with my family to eat and take food from their plate. Or i have 4 chicken nuggets at mcdonalds or a soft taco with no lettuce at taco bell. I haven't had soda or caffeine since my surgery either. I miss it