lisa1977

I only have to be there for 5 days,but were there for 7. It's awesome I can't wait

Hey Rhonda I live in the Edmonton area too(gibbons). I'm having my sleeve on august 17th. Yeah so excited. Are u having it here? I'm getting it in Puerto vallarta

So great to hear the lower BMI's. I felt very alone, I am self paying in Mexico and m so excited. I also haven't told many as I don't want the negative attitudes(my mom told me I was taking the cheaters way out),she's supportive now but initial reaction hurt. I'm afraid to tell my best friend as she has lost a ton of weight and I don't want to diminish her loss(very proud of her). I'll tell her later after I'm done so I can give her time to thoroughly enjoy her success. My BMI is 31-32, I'm 5'5 and weigh 192. I can't wait to get my life back.

Thanks for the support guys

Thank you for the support. I'd like to say I was only a size 2 for a few years, from childhood to age 25 I was always a big girl 180 lbs often called pork chop legs etc. It's devastating for me as I got a taste of what small feels like and losing it is crushing. I've done terrible things to my body such as the eca stack, topamax etc. I was on topamax for stress and I lost 60 lbs( I also ate low fat and exercised) but the medication I became stupid, i couldn't remember anything on topamax and couldn't function at work. I then had a ton of stress at work and of course food became I comfort. The hardest thing for me is knowing what it feels like to be small but being unable to get back there. I avoid seeing people I haven't seen since I was small as I feel so ashamed of my weight gain. Ive joined this board to learn a new way of life as my surgery is august 17th and regain my confidence. Lisa

I'm August 17th. Yeahhhhhh

Guess it's normal,but I keep second guessing. I know I want the surgery and don't think the food will be a big deal as I was on Topamax before and it made you forget to eat( I dropped it as it gave me a poor memory and I'd be driving and 30 minutes later not know how I got there). I guess this scares me as it's permanent. Just needed to vent I guess.