Some times to get things you've never had before, you have to do things you've never done before.
I was scared too, not that I'd miss food, because my relationship with food had to change, but about death and complications. After joining this forum, I decided that the benefits outweighed those risk. Im tired of being fat, and unhealthy.
I'm 4weekss out, 29lbs down, I quit smoking for this surgery, and I feel solo much better already. My body feels good and my mind is not as dark and dank as it was pre surgery. I feel alive, ands it's only been a month.
The beginning is not easy, no one is saying that, but it does get better. You got to decide what's the end result worth to you