I am new to this site so I can't figure out the part about this being a private conversation. . .anyway. I will be banded the week after next. Feelings: Strangely, not too many yet, but I just got instructions from my surgeon today about what to eat pre-and post-op and I guess that got me starting to feel a little nervous about really saying goodbye to using food as a crutch. And I feel a lot of anxiety about the no bread part too. If it weren't for bread, Pasta, and the fats I put on them, I'd be thin today. I have to force myself to eat Protein. I'm a vegetarian, more or less. I don't like veggies unless they're raw. So I am imagining a difficult adjustment.
As far as telling people goes, I feel healthy and calm about it. I am normally a very private person, but I have told my family (I'm very close to them and they will be with me), my boss (had to in order to get the time off) and my close friends. But I have also told a few people I'm not quite as close to at work, but people I trust to be quiet about it. I figure sooner or later the word will get around at work. As far as scrutiny goes, I feel people watch what I eat very closely now. It can't be too much worse afterwards. I just don't tell people who I feel are going to ask me many questions or who are going to try to lecture me. Shame? I've lost my weight before twice and re-gained it. People who know me know I've tried and I've worked hard at it.
I'm going to continue to work hard, as are we all. I'm putting shame behind me.
BTW, I'm not a counselor, but I'm a social worker. Close.
Nancy
