Wendy Peters

I was banded in November 2011 and I am having such issues I dont know what to do. i originally lost 25 lbs felt pretty good about my self then it was like I became possessed and have lost all control over my diet. Im eating stuff I shouldnt eating to much(Im beginning to think Ive stretched my pouch) I just dont know what my problem is. :angry: Im soo disquisted with myself I feel like such a failure! I want nothing more then to loose 100lbs and weigh 160-175 which still puts me overweight but I dont mind that weight I was healthy at that weight. i want to be healthy, get "rid" of the diabetes, high blood pressue, sleep apnea.. But its like I have an alien in my mind over riding all that I try to accomplish.
Help me I dont know what to do. I actually have made an appointment with a shrink to see if they can help me figure out why I want to stay unhealthy and obese!!! Has anyone else done this????

St wt. 349, curr wt 267 goal wt 189!
My fills seemed like they were not working but when I go to dr I'm always right where I should be or beyond! Sometimes it's ur noggin I believe. I'm used to eating anything and everything but slowly I'm getting better. We must remember we ARE allowed to make mistakes and again YOU,EVERYONE is allowed this. Sometimes look at the bigger picture not just the scale, remember also you took the initiative to do this life changing surgery! That alone Is great! I would be happy to answer questions if any come my way! I'm a 29 yr old male from Texas, toolpusher for a great company! You can only imagine the work if your a big guy when I was roughnecking, it was tough. Post on this topic because when I reach my goal not if but when I want to look back and know I struggled through this. It's what makes you whom you are!
Everyone have a safe and happy new years!!!