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Here are some of my non scale goals: I want to be able to fit into a size Medium comfortably- something I have not been able to do since I was 13/14 years old (and even then it was only for a few weeks after I was extremely sick). I want to hear 'you are so pretty' instead of 'you have such a pretty face'. I want to look and feel like I'm 20 something (I am!) instead of 40 something (I'm NOT!) I want to go dancing at the dance club instead of just dreaming about it. I want to wear one of the super sexy outfits that I spend so much time pinning on Pinterest Cute boots. High heels I want to be able to wear a bra and panties and feel sexy in them instead of feeling huge and frumpy. I want to have a boudoir photo shoot I want to be confident enough to try out new positions in bed without worrying about my fat rolls crushing my husband. I want to weigh less than my husband for the first time in my life. I want to be able to throw on a pair of my hubby's sweatpants and sweaters. He's a mens size Small/Medium. I want to be brave enough to go to playgroups, story hours, and various other activities I completely avoid because of my weight. I want to meet some of my husbands coworkers. I avoid any situation in which I'd have to meet my husbands coworkers..... because I hate that I feel so embarrassed with him. He deserves a much sexier wife. I always feel like people see us together and think "WTF??" to themselves. I want to be able to shower without having to lift up any part of my body and hunch over to wash. I want to wear clothing that requires me to shave my ENTIRE leg instead of just from the knees down. I want a bathing suit that doesn't have a skirt, a coverup, and a huge beach towel. I want to be a better mom- I have zero energy and feel like I never really want to do anything because I'm ALWAYS thinking about my weight. Even a trip to the playground is exhausting and depressing to me. I want to buy a full length mirror. We have never owned one because I have always refused to look at myself. I want to stop hiding behind my husband and/or children in pictures. I want to take professional family portraits that don't leave me feeling awful about myself. I want to wear something other than sweatpants or yoga pants. Jeans are either too big on me or so tight they cut me in half and give me epic muffin top. I want to be able to go for a walk with my 120lb sister and not huff and puff and sweat buckets. I want people to see me with my sister and not look so shocked when we say we are sisters I want to go to Zumba- and have people think "OMG She's so sexy!" instead of "OMG Look at that fat chick shaking her massive ass!" I want to go to cardio kickboxing I want to go through a pregnancy where I love my maternity clothes and I actually look pregnant instead of just fatter than normal. I want every guy who has ever broken my heart to regret not sticking with me. I want to wear flirty little summer dresses instead of huge T's and maternity (the soft stretchy waist band is very forgiving!) capris when I'm not pregnant! I want people to stop asking me if I'm pregnant. I want to make some friends instead of hide away from people because I feel like they're looking at how fat I am or how much I'm eating.

I have opted to tell nobody but my husband. The way I see it- once you tell one 'close' friend, no matter how close they are to you- you may as well have told everyone. People are so gossipy I have no doubt if I told one person they'd all know in no time whatsoever.

Only 13 weeks out?? That is amazing!!

I would seriously never look at you and think for a second you had ever been overweight.

Oh and where on earth can I get a dress like that???

You absolutely SHOULD have felt like a princess, because you darned sure looked like one. Your dress is a-freaking-mazing!!!

You look totally amazing! I can not wait to be where you are right now!

Holy smokes. You could easily be mistaken for her boyfriend!