erinreasor@msn.com

I am looking at having this surgery and found this sight. This topic is very interesting to me because I am the overweight friend. My friends try to understand as much as they can, but because they never have struggled with their weight beyond the fluctuating 10-20 lbs. they don't understand my struggles. They are the kind that can be real strict and quickly take off the excess. They also are always dressed to the nines everytime we go anywhere. They are the friends that all the guys (even though we are all married) but get all the looks. I am the one who tags along and has to laugh at all the attention they are getting and find it flattering (for them) but secretly inside I struggle with wanting to get that kind of attention too, just because it makes you feel good about yourself. Anyway all this to say my fear is not so much that they won't be my friends when I lose weight, but that they will include me more. Make me feel more welcome etc. I know that sounds bad, but I think it might make me feel kinda ticked off. Why couldn't they treat me like I had any value before the surgery? Like they will except me more cause I can dress cuter I will look better, be more like a show piece right a long side them. I realize all this sounds very pretentious and as I write I am hearing how much. But these are my friends and I do know that their priorities are messed up and so do they, but they don't really know how to change, and I am the friend that listens and helps them through life and their struggles. But I can't help thinking that I will be a little bit resentful of them after surgery. Has anyone else dealt with these kind of emotions? or am I just thinking into something way to deeply?