brokenwings

I am back to feeling neausated and cant seem to get enough fluids down due to feeling sick. I have worked on the same bottle of gatoraid light all day and only got like half of it done. Took some phengren but feel yucky and got a headache. I hope this part of it passes soon

Hi all my friends This time tomorrow i will be on the other side joining many of you on the banded side. So started last night reflecting on this journey. I have thought of doing this for a few years and tried at my old job but it was no way they was covering anything. Then something happened to make me change jobs (a change i prayed about) and with in a month and half of my switching jobs i was on my way to being banded and had my seminar. At seminar i was disappointed to learn i had a 6 mos wait and had to use carewise during that 6 mos. This in fact ended up being another good thing. It let me soul search as well as learn alot to the point that i feel prepared. I had been super worried for weeks bout the week preop diet. Again alot of prayers and it has been a breeze. I have not felt hungry and it did not even bother me when my family scoffed down pizza in front of me while i chewed on my carrots. I cant say i never desired anything they had to eat but that desire passed with in mins. Same thing at work. Smelling the food was like mmm then it would pass. I am so ready for this change. People keep asking me "arent you scared" and i tell them no, cause for some reason i am not. Yesterday even had a coworker point out a patient with a colostomy and say "doesnt that frighten you" I told her no cause i am going for lapband not a colostomy. Yes this has been an amazing journey that i relize that i have just really started. I want to thank each of you cause you along the way give me guidence, knowledge, encouragment and most of all support. We are ALL going to make it and we are all going to be better people both health and our emotional beings!!!!

sore... A some gas pains which can be bottersome.. But other then that i am good..I was very neausated for a while but that seems to have passed.

Sue I actually did stay pretty calm. I did say prayers before i went but would done that for any sugery. I am now home. Sore, a little neausated feeling, some pain left shoulder but other then that i am doing good.

If anyeon likes coffee drinks I have fallen in love with the slim fast 3 2 1 capucinco delight

I do have bcbs illinois I had to jump through the hoop of a 6 mos education dietican phone calls from carewise but that was due to my employer not bcbs. They was easy once i did that i got approved in days. I have my surgery tomorrow. Good luck!

Angie The best encouragment i can give you is to think are you happy with the weight you are now? Have you tried mutliple times to shed the pounds only to gain them and more back can you see yourself in 10 years as you contiune to put on weight? I Know i cant stand the thought for myself and this is my way to cure that. Obesity is an illness same as other illnesses. Now if they told you that you had appencitis would you say hmm no i dont want the surgery. Of course not. Thats what this is for me (and almost everyone else on here). I know that if i dont do something for my weight I am going to die. Not tomorrow not next week but way sooner then i should. I also know this weight is causing me not only emotional pain but physical pain. My knees scream at me when i walk up stairs. My back hurts almost all the time. I dont want to miss out on life cause of my weight. I wish i could have had this done 10 years ago. Now smile and prepare cause we are on a journey a journey to better US! and your right along with us for the ride So buckle up and lets all enjoy the scerney. Cause this is just the first step and its going to get better from here.

Ty Anissa, Ty Julz that pic is special as I took it in my car with my cell phone while waiting to go into the seminar that started this whole journey... Funny i was much more scared that day then i am today... Thats what support and information will do for you

My band day is also May 2 just one more day!!! I am so excited and ready to get this done.

Your going to do great... I am in 48 hours.. This time wenesday i will be banded

I had a very bad night sleeping last night. Went to bed with my back and leg hurting and tossed and turned also had on my mind what if something does go wrong during surgery. I have my children grown (youngest is a jr and is 18) but I sure want to be around for a long long time to enjoy them and my grandbabies. So anyway this morning after waking up many times i dozed back to sleep and i had this dream. My daughter and myself went into a resturant that was serve yourself. When we went in they informed us it was based on how much you thought you would eat. When i told them i had no idea they then choose the biggest meal plan for me. I was slightly embarrassed but that didnt stop me from going to the line and start loading up my tray. I wanted everything. I kept thinking how embarrasing it was and that everyone was going to see my tray of food and think of me as a pig. But then i spotted the hugest chocolate cupcake with mile high icing. Somone was eating one and i had to have one to. I looked around and there wasnt any left except one they used for disply. So i took it. I then proceded to take a bite while everyone in the place was watching and whispering bout me being a pig. The first bite and it was awful. It tasted like ice milk only worse. I quickly tossed it away, I was waken up just at that time at what i thought was a car horn only when i looked outside wasnt anyone there. I think this was my msg that I cant contiune this way. That i must take this step to become a new me. To beat this food issue once and for all. I know this was weird and a long story but well i had to share it with someone who might understand how this dream effected me.

Sending Prayers and good vibes your way. Would appricate you do the same for me Wensday as thats when i have my band. I have to be at the hospital at 6 am but driving 2 1/2 hours so will be leaving my home around 3 am.

Wow sorry your husband is being so mean. I think he is bullying you becasue of his own self image He is scared you will lose weight then leave him. And if he is always this way with you he may be right. NO one deserves to be talked to the way he is to you at this time. Tell him if he cant be supportive then to just be quiet. There is risks to anything but much more risks to what your health is going to be if you dont lose weight. Fact is being over weight is damaging to all of our bodies. So do this not for the negitive husband but for yourself!

lol that sounds so much nicer then the weird dream i had last night. I am on day 4 of my preop diet and having surgery wenesday. SO this morning i dreamed i was in a place and they charged you on how much you would eat and they charged me the most expensive meal. It was self serve and i kept adding things i wanted to my tray thinking the whole time how everyone who saw it would think i was a pig but did not have the will power to not get it. Then i saw this chocolate cupcake someone was eating and i had to have one. I looked around only one i saw was part of the table decoration but i took it The icing was mile high and it looked so good.Everyone was watching me and whispering bout what a pig i was, I took a bite and it was awful. Tasted sorta like ice milk but much worse. I couldnt wait to throw it away. Thats when i woke up

I guess in this i am lucky. I have 2 coworkers who did this 2 yrs ago both highly successful. One had slight complications but i asked her even with that would she do it all over again and her answer was a unresounding YES. I do have one coworker who tells me this scares her and worries her. But fact is while any surgery scares me not as much as growing older with this weight and what i know my health in the long run will be.

Ok its very normal to have fears. A few days ago i was laying in bed and almost went into a pure panic bout the surgery. Thing is I look at it this way. While there are risks for any procedure they are less then the risk of you getting injuried in a car accident. You must put all risks in perpespective. Now i cant tell you what will happen if you have the surgery i can tell you the riks of heart diease, Diabeties complication etc.. are VERY high if you dont have the surgery and lost weight. This is a life changing surgery and I personally think it will change all of our lifes for the good. I want to live a long healthy life. I know now when i walk my knees hurt, my back is hurting as i sit here typing. I Know that the fact that im insulin resistance mean i am one step from diabeties and being a nurse i know what that does to your kidneys heart etc... SO While you must make your own choice please dont let anyone freak you out. Think of these riks in perspective...

Sure is a quiet day in here. Seems no one is around. I have had my lunch and breakfest and so far the preop diet has been ok with me. I lost 1.6 lbs yesterday. I dont have alot ot say just wanted to see what everyone else is up to today.

I am taking a week after surgery. I have my surgery on a wen i am not coming back to work till the following thur.

I have been trying to figure out how to post the before pics in the profile. I see the spot for it but cant figure out how to upload a picture. I have forever hidden from the camera and i dislike seeing pictures of me. The reason is they make me relize just how big i have become. Thus i want to put my before pic up here so i can use it to help myself stay on track and maybe when i get to put an after pic it can be encouragment to others...

i was going to be off work untill my surgery wenesday but I am going in to work for a friend today who needed off for a family emergancy.I have had alot of time on my hands but i am now wondering how i will do at work on this preop diet. I have been doing great at home, even if i have only lost 2 lbs in the 2 days. I have not had the desire to cheat on it at all.

My diet plan is 2 shakes a day has to be below 25 carbs, 2 cups of milk a day 2% or Skim, 1 cup of fruit juice, 3 dairy products a day to include( Light Yogurt, sugar free pudding, 1/2 cup cottage cheese) 2 fruits a day ( a small fruit or 1/2 cup canned), 2 fudge sycles (no sugar added) 2 cups of veggies a day ( can use italian dressing on these) all the soup broth i want and all the popsycles, crystal light i want. I know ppl keeps having issues with this diet and i know i am only on the 2 day but for me its been pretty easy. The worse part is the shakes only found one i really like alot. But the rest of the day i am eating eating eating and feel good. I hope this helped.

Darlin i would call my Surgeon first thing in the morning. Tell him what happened get in to see him as soon as possiable... He will know the answers.

HI all. Yet again been so busy no time to be online. I am bout to get time off work though. Yesterday was my preop visit. Found a new insight to ppl i give PO contrast to for CTs. YUCK... I hated that it made me ill the min i drunk it. In that they found out i have a small Hiatia hernia (was told np the dr will fix it when he does my band) Also they took my bp after the uper gi and found it was high So now i gotta go see my family dr to get medical cleared (this is not a problem) I plan on doing that tue morning, she is a friend of mine so i know it wont be a problem. Other then that i am ready to go. I did get one nice surprise I asked since i drive 2 1/2 hours to see my surgeon if anyway i could do my pre surgery visit by phone and he agreed. So i talk to him wen then the next wen May 2, at 830 am is my Time i get to start a new chapter of my life. Yayyyyy I am excited.

Awww Charda shake (no pun intended) it off hon. Its going to be ok. You just change it now. The preop diet is for the most part to not lose weight but to shrink that liver down. Just look at it as one step to getting closer to the band we all need...