Brat1024

How about they were literally about to put the mask on me and I freaked out and said NO I can't do this......all I kept thinking about was omg i'm going to be starving for the rest of my life...I know that sounds crazy but I was so scared of everything and let me tell you here it is 2 months later and I am scheduled for surgery on Oct 31st. I regretted not going thru with it...I kept beating myself up trying to figure out what to do. OMG the emotions were out of control and I think mainly because I was on liquids for 3 days and was STARVING, weak, and just wanted to EAT. It's 4:52 am and I am wide awake thinking about this surgery. I am more excited than nervous this time around but i'm still scared....I don't know what is right for me, but I do know that I need to do something and can only pray that this tool will let me break out of this lifestyle and into a new healthier, skinnier me Good luck to you and I know you will make the right descion....it's all about you and thats what I am also learning thru all this...I need to do ME!!!! I'm still scared tho lol

How about they were literally about to put the mask on me and I freaked out and said NO I can't do this......all I kept thinking about was omg i'm going to be starving for the rest of my life...I know that sounds crazy but I was so scared of everything and let me tell you here it is 2 months later and I am scheduled for surgery on Oct 31st. I regretted not going thru with it...I kept beating myself up trying to figure out what to do. OMG the emotions were out of control and I think mainly because I was on liquids for 3 days and was STARVING, weak, and just wanted to EAT. It's 4:52 am and I am wide awake thinking about this surgery. I am more excited than nervous this time around but i'm still scared....I don't know what is right for me, but I do know that I need to do something and can only pray that this tool will let me break out of this lifestyle and into a new healthier, skinnier me Good luck to you and I know you will make the right descion....it's all about you and thats what I am also learning thru all this...I need to do ME!!!! I'm still scared tho lol