jasleeve

yay! congrats on your sleeve! i HATE the Protein shakes & after having it for like 10days already, i decided to go get a rotisserie chicken for protein & i removed the skin. i had maybe 1/3 of a 1/4 white chicken & my stomach was KILLING ME!!!! i had diarrhea immediately after and i left my food sitting there as i went & pottied. i see this isnt going to be easy, not one bit. :/

well shes a really good friend & supports me tremendously! i just know her so well & i listen to some things that she says about other people who are smaller than me or whatever... i say to myself, if she feels that way about them, she must feel that way about me! idk. when im with her, i play the ugly fat friend. although im not ugly, the way i dress isnt too flattering. i HATE it.

thank you for the kind words. i attend support groups, have a youtube vlog & visit VST often. i guess i cant believe how i let myself go but i guess it will get better after surgery!

thank you so much! its true.. next year, ill be there for sure! i just look in the mirror & im so DISGUSTED! i also feel like she looks at me the same. i mean, i know she accepts me flaws and all but i do feel that she looks at me like "im not on her level." i even dress some what like a tom boy because dressing too girly isnt flattering. im ashamed.

i went with my bestfriend shopping today. she has an amazing body!!! we went to a store that I CANT FRIGGIN WAIT TO SHOP IN!!!! as i helped her try on a million and one sexy dresses for her birthday party tomorrow at a club, i couldnt help but be sooooooooo jealous! i kept looking in the mirror at myself & i swear, i saw flaws that ive never noticed before. i mean damn, the things i was saying about myself in my head were so mean & cruel. id knock someones head off their shoulders if they ever said to me what i was saying to myself! im more worst critic. at this point, tuesday isnt coming fast enough! i just want to be sleeved & begin my journey in going back to a size where i felt sexy! tomorrows my bestfriends birthday party & shes so upset that im not going but the truth is, i cant wear heels because im too big to balance myself on a heel & it kills my feet & back! & i wouldnt dare put on a sexy dress & i only have 1 pair of jeans that fit me! while shes all cute & thin but curvy, im big, round & just not cute. i could never tell her this because she would just roll her eyes to the back of her head & say "soooooo what!" or "no your not!" but i know i am & its not so what! theres nothing that i hate more than when i express my feelings to someone & they dismiss them! smh! what pisses me off also is she always ALWAYS calls herself fat. if youre fat, WDF AM I??? i literally threatened her today & cursed her out and told her to STFU!!! my insecurities were sitting up on mars some where. smh! thanks for reading my story, i needed to get that out!

congrats!!! is the hair loss really that bad?

yay!

ohhh ok! the hospital gavee a solution that i have to wash with the day of surgery & 2 days before!

mine is tuesday too

wow! did he ever come?

what are hibiclens? i think youve got it all covered girl!

i hope so!! cuz hearing her mouth will make me pick another elective surgery to get away.... lmpraoooo!

i bought my gas x strips!!!

idk.. my mom will be taking care of me & shes a complainer! i think i prefer the nurses :x

i cant believe ppl would even ask why u r buying a robe! ummmm u dumb female dog, could be for a number of reasons.... lets see: 1. its winter! 2. you like to put one on after a shower! 3. its christmas season! 4. you dont want to walk around in your pjs! smh. people truly make me sick! lol.

i just received my acceptance letter & it states that it will only cover 1 day unless medically necessary. is that normal? i know its 3 days (2 nights)

do whatever you feel is right for you! screw him! we all stand behind you!

the NERVE of some people!

1. lose weight. 2. become a gym rat. lol. 3. learn to love myself. 4. learn my sleeve. 5. get back into school. 6. pay off some debt. 7. become a social butterfly. 8. become more fashionable.

ok

yay!!! go girl! i had some chicken today cuz these shakes r killing me & it gave me the runs

CONGRATS MY LOVE!!!! im so happy for you!!! <3

lol you could make it private and make it so that only certain ppl see it. look me up on youtube

aw thanks love! when i get to my mac, imasub to u now

"the end of a relationship is not necessarily the tragedy. staying in a relationship that is no longer working is the tragedy! living unhappily- thats the tragedy." -olivia wilde