SuchALoser

Hello all!!
I have a problem and I no what I have to do but I don't want to do it. I was banded May22nd 2006. My starting weight was 215 today I weigh 167. I just want to get to 140 then I keep telling myself I will get my band loosened. I have a 4cc band and have had 2 fills so I am 3cc filled. Since my last fill which was a while ago say in june or july I get sick all the time. After each meal. No matter if its solid mushy I eat fast or slow which I can say this is problay the success to my weight lose. I work in an Emergency Room and when I am on lunch break people see me tring to each my lunch leaving to go to the bathroom at least 4-5 times throughout my meal. They are so concerened they say I am bulimic and when i say i will get it loosened after i reach 140 they say I will be so used to vomiting that I will automatically do it even when looser. I want all the weight gone so bad that I am putting myself threw this, along with compulsive over eating. Just like I did in the beginning to gain the weight my habbits haven't changed much. I figure well I am ginna puk it up anyway why not enjoy the moment. I no this is a wrong way to think and act but its so hard to break its easier to just go with it. I tell myself that If I didnt have a problem to begin with i wouldn't have ended up where i was from the start. For my pschiatric exam to have the surgery he said I have a eating disorder but will not say that cause then i wouldn't have been eligable for the surgery. I no there's a problem here and I plan on going to thereapy after I get the band opened up a bit when i reach 140. I am wondering if anyone else is going threw the same battle as I am. Would love to have some support and would love to give some back as well. Thanks for listening!!

I'm in the same boat you are. Same amount of fill and same triggers! You could be my band twin! I was getting food stuck ALL the time for a few weeks and it was driving me nuts. I was starting to figure out ways to get food unstuck in a hurry, and that made me realize I wasn't paying attention to what was making me stuck in the first place. So one day I woke up and decided to pay attention to what went in my mouth and how I ate it from that point on. I think I've only gotten food stuck 4 times in the past month. I used to get food stuck like 4 times a day. I'm now dropping weight again and feeling way happier with my band. You have to think about the food and how you eat to get it to work right without getting stuck. I had a really hard time letting go of bread. I love bread. Now that I have stopped eating it I am MUCH happier!

I just want to thank you all for all the advice and support that you all have shared with me. I go to my surgeon within the next week and I will speak to him about this. I have told him that I vomit but I didn't tell him exactly how much, he did swollening studies on me and they all looked good. I have trouble most of the time making smart food choices I take advantage of the band most of the time, this is stuff I have to work on cause I no this is no way to live especially now that my children have noticed me getting sick all the time they say mommy your skinny now but too bad you throwup all the time. Brakes my heart but I feel like there is no way to stop this or its just too hard to do it. But for the new year I am going to talk to my doctor and get a referral to a thereapist for this wonderful problem I am blessed with, could be worse.