Loooou

God speed!! I hope all goes away soon and u feel better real sooner!! hugs to u XO

I cant believe how awesome this board is!.. Seriously! I love it more than the OH boards.. It is like a family! I find myself tracking everyone and reading most of the blogs and may be rereading some of the posts... I should always be thankful to GOD that I found this board. Now, after saying I am brave enough, I am doing this for myself! and I can actually do this! I am freaking out! I keep having sleeping problems, visualizing the day I will walk myself to a hospital asking for pain! yes pain! I am very sensitive! may be a coward! . I cant believe I will be able to proceed! although I know I will. I know I will wear the gown and let them do the pre op procedures but then what!! how can I give them the permission to drag me to the surgery room! and cause me pain:( I remember with the band, I woke up to a terrifying pain! I dont wanna feel that pain again. Dont take my post as if I am changing my mind or something. I just needed to let this out and let someone else know that although I act brave infront of my family I am still panicing deep inside! I dont wish anyone who is having the surgery near to read this .. I really need words of encouragement! something to think of when I try to say no I changed my mind dont put me under anesthesia ! I am doing this knowing I might not reach my goal! and I might end up losing 50 pounds at most.. I know it will be so worth it. But I am afraid of the surgery, Afraid I might not make it, I still didnt live! my fat never allowed me to! Also I am afraid of the pain:( Well, there I let you know about my everyday thought while I am trying to sleep .. that moment they will drag me to the operation room! and will I make it there..? Thanks again for listening XOX

I will be keeping all of ur thoughts and words in my mind!! I think it is easing my worries way better! I keep browsing the board watching all the sucess stories and inspirational posts!! it really helps distract me from my nightmare about pain! I am sorry If I sounded like a big coward but I feel like this is a place where no can be judged and I feel loose here:) thank u so much!! U have no idea how much u are helping me:) XO

You have done so great for that short time:) the difference is huge:) thanks for posting this.

best of luck:) and keep us updated:)

YOU ARE A TRUE DIVA!! u should also miss inspiration and awesome motivator to that!! U look outstanding:) thanks for posting this!!

I am sooooo HAPPY!! really !! I am glad u had an amazing doctor and that all ur complications were resolved:)) Welcome back and welcome on the loser bench!! It wont be that long before I join u! so save me a seat:) Wish u a smooth recovery and an extremely happy journey:)

So hereI am again ... bothering the hell out of you amazing supportive people but please bare with me again! so the decision have been made!! I am going to have a sleeve!! in 3 weeks may be 4 MAX as soon as the money is all there. Talked to my doctor and he just asked me to do some lab tests and other chest and cardio ones too. Also he told me I should go on a diet!! one week before my surgery!! I was like Doctor I have been on a diet forever! LOL he laughed back and he was like I dont wanna put u on a liquid diet for so long so you either go on a strict diet one week before the surgery or just have a liquid diet 4 days before the surgery! he knows liquid diet sucks when I am on a band!!! Now dont get me wrong.. I do believe after reading nearly half of the board that some see that the band makes u have bad food choices which I agree with so much!! but It restricted ur eating one day? I cant get chicken down for example which most of you can't too but if ever I managed too I still dont lose weight or may be have a little gain at the end of the week.. so WHAT IF ! I started eating healthier on my sleeve with restriction ofcourse and I still didnt lose the weight?! Quiet frankly I have been having less than 1000 calories a day for god knows how long now! and I am still flactuating between the same 6 pounds!! even with running involved and everything I still dont see results! Is my body saying its over for u! thats the lowest u can reach?! I know there is no one who can guarantee me I can lose the weight after my sleeve but If my sleeve will just let me eat more comfortably "With restriction" -and comfortably I mean without feeling the stuck food in my throat - and I still consume the same low amount of calories.. then whats the difference it could make with my weight?! I hate to be another failure at another procedure! this might crush my forever .. you know? so let me know your thoughts.. and If I couldnt make myself clear as I mentioned before English is my second langauange please please let me know so I can try to clear it more out! I am still happy but worried, afraid ofcourse of the surgery as usual.. then Excited after seeing the success stories!! I am also terrified of the liquid diet I will have to be on before and after my surgery!! I couldnt get one clear thought out of the board about it! some feel good with certain liquid and others dont! Will I still be able to consume latte? knowing it is skimmed skinny one? I hate citrus stuff like oranges freshly squeezed juice .. so what did u have on ur liquid diet?! before and after? Thanks again !!

Thanks! it seems so true .. I keep asking and the answers come my way! this forum is just too friendly happy supportive one! I am just addicted! I find myself checking on ppl now and worrying about those whose surgery date was on! It is amazing:) Ur input sure helps a lot:) and I am so thankful u took the time to write it:).. I was so aware of the decaffeinated coffee after I read about it here several times .. so I went out and bought a decaf one.. I think I bought my vitamins/protein shake and the only thing now I have to buy is patience and something to ease my stress! I am a smoker and the more the date is approaching the harder I find it to quit!.. I know it is terrible, and we they have no policy against smoking. so finger crossed I will survive this! thank u again and congratulations on ur weightloss!!! It is amazing:)

Thank u so much I too think you should go with the sleeve.. the main reason I am saying that cause I saw ur ticker, u are 110 LBS away from ur goal.. and to be honest the band only helped me when I was way heavier than u! I was over 300 pounds and it helped me losing 90 pounds the rest were purely on my own! So with a lighter weight like urs I would go with the sleeve, I am having friends who weighted 50 pounds less than me and had the band and are stuck at the same weight I am today!. I dont mean to push anything toward ur way but as u said, u have read a lot and knew what u are gonna be facing with both. I think my story is typical! I also would advice if u visit the OH board to go to the sleeve and the revision board. The band one is a bit formal! people stopped posting about their bands problems there cause as I heard some were really too offensive and did nothing but blame the failure on them. Best of luck with ur decision and I too wish the sleeve will work for all of us:)

I will be praying for u to feel better soon! which I know u will!! focus of the rules!! sip, walk rest!

Aww!! thanks for the Temaki Tip! never knew it! I am glad I have had the chance to speak to u!! u are an info guru when it comes to my favorite food!! which I become addictive to after my band!! I was glad I found it too! it was my only way out! with the band "No chicken, meat or veggies can pass through!" so yeah I am glad to have great news about the sleeve and sashimi!! It is a great deal of losing weight! when u stay away from the fried stuff ofcourse:) Thanks again for ur detailed explaination!! it is a great insights to what I should expect in less than 4 days!! my surgery is on the 16th .. BEST OF LUCK on ur journey and glad ur ex wife saw u! and stared!! ) I cant wait for someone who called me a "cow" after he broke up with me years ago to see me after my sleeve! one of the NSV I am looking forward too! have a great week!! and one last question.. is the hunger really fading?

Oh It turns out it is on the 16th:) Saturday! Hope u are doing great by now!! I so wanna hear from u XOX.. I just added someone who had common friends with me (sleeve friends) I hope thats u!!

WOWOW!!! AMAZING!! u look great!! well done:))))) thanks for posting this!