Let me start again...

Well when I started this journal I told myself that I would keep up with this, and just like all my diets I failed.

So I have been doing some thinking, ok a lot of thinking, which isnt always a good thing for me.

I am truly sick of thinking and trying to figure out why I am the way I am. Did I have a great childhood, no, but neither did a lot of other people and they didnt end up OB with panic attacks. So what makes me different or should I say weak? What makes me eat when i am not hungry and stuff myself when I am?

Here I am at 40 years old and I still dont know who I am. When I started this journal I was asking myself this question and 3 months later I am still asking. So what now?

I just dont know!