May 13, 2006

I am feeling much better then my last post. I guess it is normal to go through feelings of depression and sadness once in a while. I also have realized that I cant put all the blame on my Dr. I dont think he sees me and says "I am going to mess up her life today" It is just a freak thing that happened. And if you really look at it, its not all really all that bad. I havent slipped or eroded to make me lose my band forever. I just have a leak and its getting replaced. I had an infection in the port and it got removed. That is what is suppose to be done. I went back and edited a lot of my posts on here so it doesnt read so dramatic. I am staying with my Dr. I have been with him a year and I am going to get him the chance to fix this mess. I knew that there could be possiable complications having this I am STILL willing to take that risk. I cant give up hope yet, I have to keep going. I need a better life for myself and if I am willing to go all the way with this... I know my Dr. is too. I started this thing to lose and by golly I AM GOING TO FINISH!!!!!!! Holes, Leaks and all!!!!