May 8,2006

Since being unbanded (2/3/06) I've gainded 25 ugly pounds. I hate myself, I'm embarrased in front of my family. I cringe when they look at me. I think about losing it 24 hours a day while I'm pigging out on chips, peanut butter cups, etc. Please God help me gain control of myself.

Yesterday I ate:

sausage & eggs

Sun chips

coconut cake

peanut butter cups

BBQ ribs

sun chips

peanut butter cups.

Why do I buy these things? IF they are'nt in the house I won't eat them. I won't make a special trip to get them. I buy them when I'm shopping for other things. How can I stop myself?:angry