I hate feeling like this...

God, I hate eating. It's like I have an endless pit for a stomach and nothing keeps me full. I know I don't have a medical condition, because I was at the doctors earlier this year. It's funny (not ha-ha funny), but every time I see her, she says: "You're such a pretty girl, but you need to lose some weight because you won't get boyfriend if your are overweight." (She's Indian). I almost cry because I hear that enough from my relatives. "You are so pretty, cute, smart, sexy, but...you need to lose weight." *SCREAMS* I KNOW THAT! I DEAL WITH THAT FACT EVERY GOD DAMN DAY OF MY LIFE, ASSES!

Sorry if the cursing offended you, but man. People think I don't know squat about how much I weigh. I think they think I don't own a mirror or something.

One thing about having depression is the fact that it can come with a vengence. Today, my "partner" in astronomy class decided to sit somewhere else. I thought it was because I was overweight. It's probably true that people avoid me because I'm fat.It also may be due to the fact I wear skulls from my ears down to my feet and have the look of, "You speak to me, I kill you.":biggrin:

But back to the main topic; I just hate feeling like I'm always hungry. I know it's not a mental thing, because there are days were I'm fine. *SIGH* I don't know.

I also had a Dr that thought matchmaking would be a good incentive for weight loss. Putz!

There are married fat people too.

Anyways, are you banded? Or looking for information?

Hang in there. If you choose to you can change your path. You just need the right vehicle.

Good luck in your journey,

Amanda