First Time Blogger

So.. I am not normally a blogger but I figure why not. I can look at it as a little bit of cheap "therapy" lol. I am not happy with the band right now. I'm not going to sugar coat it....I'm just not happy. Now don't get me wrong I am very glad that I had the band. AND I still feel it was THE BEST thing I have ever done for myself BUT right now I am less than thrilled. I was banded October of 2007 so I am almost a year out. I haven't lost a pound in like 4 months although I just had my 5th fill about 2 weeks ago. I'm up to 5cc's in a 10cc band and each time I go to my surgeon he acts surprised like I shouldn't need a fill. I mean really... would I just choose to shell out 150 bucks if I didn't need to. The answer to that is no by the way. So I already feel like I need another fill. I almost feel like I can eat more now than after say my 2nd or 3rd fill. Sometimes I think I try and overeat just to see how far I can push it with my fill. Unfortunately the answer is I can push it too far b/c I don't end up feeling like I even have a band sometimes. I cannot tell you how many times I have looked on the internet for possible signs and symptoms of prolapse b/c sometimes I think something must have gone awry with this whole band thing. I don't know....guess I just need to know if I'm in this boat alone because sometimes it feels like I am. I read all of these stories and articles where everyone talks about being able to eat only 1/2 cup at a time. Seriously... I could eat a 1/2 a cow lol I am keeping my head up though and trying to just stay on track. We'll see how that goes..........

I'm just newly banded and i am at the stage where i only eat 1/4 at a time and i feel alot of restriction so i do not push it...but you have been very successful with your band right? Are you gaining or just not lossing?