July and counting...

Got my 2nd fill coming up, and I am now down to 312 from 340, so I am doing ok but still feel I am eating too much and not excercising at all hardly. I feel sorry for myself when the pain in my knee gets so bad just standind up. I have to lose weight before I think of knee replacement, but I can't f#@ kin stand or walk half the time. I want to get motivated and if i feel good I try to do something and then the pain is so intense I am shaking. I weigh myself too often and share nothing about my surgery with anyone, I just can't. I am on my own with this and pleased to be. I will conquer this. I need to be the person I know is in me.