Into June...

Well here I am headed past the 1st month, and have had my first fill. It does restrict a lot more, and I am glad. I think I can still eat too much but am losing some so am happy. I use this site to keep me focused. I am so scattered with a lot of business decisions and need this. I have one person that knows I have a band and she is a bit jealous I think. Not my problem, I just did this for me, and I want it to work. I will try to remember the TOPS motto from when I was a teen and dieting from 147 down to 129, never made it...

"I am an intelligent person, I will control my emotions and not let my emotions control me. Every time I am tempted to use food to satisfy my frustrated desires, build up my injured ego, or dull my senses I will remember, even though I over eat in private my excess poundage is there for all to see what a fool I've been."

I don't want to be a fool, I want to be me. When I am lying on the bed and chatting I feel a thin sexy body, same when I am with my SO, so I know she is in there, and I need to set her free again!