4 month anniversary

Well, it was my four month anniversary two days ago. As of today, I have lost 41 pounds. I had a VERY slow beginning, but the weight is coming off steadily (usually) now. Last week, my weight went up three/four pounds, but it is back down today. Thank God for that! My goal has always been to lose about ten pounds per month. If I do that, then I should reach my goal weight right about the time I want to get pregnant! Funny!

Social eating is a problem for me. Not many people know about my surgery, so I always feel I have to eat a "normal" amount of food so that I don't look like an idiot. With the band, this is impossible so I thow up. That cannot be good for my esophogus--or the band. I've noticed that all of my old habits have not gone away either...not that I expected them to just disappear. I still try to eat constantly when I'm home (on vacation). Except, now with the band, I can't eat as much and, when I do overeat (notice I said when, not if), I throw up. It mystifies me that I would rather have the horrible throwing up feeling than just eat what I'm supposed to. I know I will fail if I continue these horrible habits.

On the up side, I am FINALLY seeing some results with regard to clothes. I can't believe how much better I look. Without clothes, I don't see a difference at all. WITH clothes, I'm looking almost normal!!! Well, still very large, but not "OH MY GOD" large. Yeah!!!!! I'm having fun clothes shopping, but spending WAY too much money!!!! My husband is enjoying the new me though!

The lowest I've EVERY weighed in my adult life is 240. I can't even imagine what it will be like below that. I feel like my weight loss doesn't even start until then, because I've been there before and gained it all back. In my head, it seems like 240 is my starting point. I'm 9 pounds away, and I can't wait to get into the new weights!!!

Well, here's to a great week and to meeting my goal of 235 by Valentine's Day!!!

Jennie