3 month anniversary today...

I just now realized that today is my three-month anniversary. I've lost 30 pounds so far. I'm in kind of a melancholy mood. I'm so happy that the band is working. I feel all kinds of restriction and think I am at my "sweet spot". I can't eat very much at meals (maybe 8-10 bites), and, while I feel hunger in between, it's not too bad.

However, I'm SO impatient. I remember when I was on the Atkins diet (before it almost killed me) that I was losing weight almost daily. The pounds literally melted off of me. In the past two weeks (since my last fill), that's been happening to me, but, as of today, has stopped. I know I will continue to lose weight, but it disappoints me that it won't be as fast.

I know that the gastric bypass has this happen, and that the band typically loses weight slower, but I'm SO ready for this to happen. I look at others who had their surgery around the same time as me. Many of them have lost so much more weight than me. I know I JUST got restriction two weeks ago, but I feel that I should be so much further along.

I'm so afraid of eating too much and this not working. It really is the last resort and, I know it has worked for everyone else and that this is an irrational thought, but just "what if" I'm the only one it won't work for. I know I'll lose a little bit more weight, but what if I stop at 250 or 240? 240 is the lowest I've been in my adult life. And I was only there for a couple of weeks before gaining it all back and more. I'm so scared that I will only stop at 250/240 and that I'll never have what everyone else talks of on here.

Jennie