12-03-2007

start weight: 295

surgery weight: 270

6 weeks post op: 258

Well, there is still slow weight loss. I actually haven't gotten on the scales since last weeks weigh in. I'm scared it's gone up because I haven't been very good about what's been going in my mouth. Tomorrow is my first fill. Thank God!!! I haven't felt like I have a band for the past few weeks. I want so bad to feel the restriction I felt right after surgery.

I feel guilty about going to the doctor and not having lost but 1 or 2 lbs since my last appointment 3 weeks ago. I get tired of feeling the guilt. I want that way of thinking to change. Something for me to keep working on. I'm hoping I get re-motivated after getting a fill and talking with the doc. I haven't been very good about exercising. I need to get back on track with that. I've been averaging only three thirty minute workouts a week. I want to do at least five. Something else for me to work on.

I also am not looking forward to getting poked for the fill. I always work myself up about things like this and then in the end think it wasn't that bad. I will give a report on how things went tomorrow.

Hope everyone out there is doing good. Take care...