I'm still here!

The date is getting closer and closer. I still have some issues saying no to food and having a hard time doing the liquid diet. I think I am ready for this, I want to look and feel different about me. I want to also be attractive to me and then to others as well. I'm still too embarassed to tell folks what I am doing so I make up stories. But that is not a big issue right now. I am not sure if it is my fear of failure or just "I should have been able to do this" without the band. Either way I am doing this! I do need however someone to talk with and this journal writing is helping with meeting that need. :bandit