So I figure this is as good as journal.

I need to make sure I can have some system of record to track progress and see how I'm managing through this.

I can't begin to express my emotions. I'm so excited and every ounce of me feels like this is the right decision. Of course my mom is making so nervous with her over anxiousness. I keep trying to reassure her everything will be OK. I think, however, this speaks to a lot of fears within my family to try new things. It's so weird, my sister and I are just not cut from the same cloth as my family. She moved to Berlin just for the heck of it, I myself travel the world over at any and every chance. Yet, most of my family will not move further than 10 minutes from the other members. It's so bizarre.

Anywho, my surgery date is December 14th!!!

I'm so excited and I know it will be here before I know it. The last piece to all of this, is getting my passport renewed as I'm going to Mexico for my procedure.

I've already started my pre-op diet and walking 3 miles a day. I also bought a nutri-bullet. Surprisingly, it's actually help me beat the flu. I started my nutri-blasts the day I work up with an unbearable sore throat (that is always the first sign of a flu for me & it usually takes me down for a week or two). I will admit, 3 days of these nutri blasts and I feel great. I figured it would help me post-op when it was time to go to my soft food stage to help me get some better nutrients in. Whoever came up with that thing, is brilliant. I will admit, sometimes when I have more than 1 a day, I don't always add the green factor in & depending on the recipe, I allow myself a teaspoon of sugar or vanilla almond milk, but it definitely doesn't change the effect of getting all that good nutrition in me.

So yea I'm feeling great. Wish my surgery was earlier in December, just kind of ready to get it over with LOL. I've been mulling over this for like 5 years and for some reason, I know once I get going with this, I'm going to kick myself for not doing it 5 years ago. I guess the thing with me is that, I kept running into or hearing about people who were unsuccessful with bypass surgery or had complications with the band. The sleeve just makes more sense for me and I know this will be a tool that helps me succeed.

I guess I may as well start thinking of some rewards for myself. Here's a list to get started:

50 lbs = spa day

75 lbs = dance shoes

100 lbs = arjuni D

125 lbs = host huge event for friends

150 lbs = $1500 new wardrobe

Goal = book Europe trip to see my sis

I'm sure these will be tweaked a bit as time moves along, but it's a starting point and plenty of things to look forward too.