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Loosing Hope

Ready for the new Lay-Lay

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I have not been on any sites lately because I am getting negativity all around me. So now I am hoping that I can get some positivity from someone.

OK, so I decided that I wanted WLS this summer, went to a seminar got all the info. Then I went to my doctor, she did not like the Dr. that I went to the seminar with, and suggested another doc. This doc has a better bedside manner, but she was not as experienced with the Gastric sleeve as the other, plus she is booked until next summer. So I went back to the doctor that I picked went through the process, did my psych and nutritional assessment, checked on my status, they still have not received my doc recommendation. So I called, she was on vacation for two weeks. Uggggh!!!!!!! I asked if I could see another doc to get the letter, no had to get the letter from the doc that I have been with for the past 5 years. So once she is back, I went through another 2 week of aggravation because she was not happy that I did not pick the doctor she recommended. She made me make another appointment to get a physical (that I took this summer to get the recommendation), and she tried to talk me out of the doctor. She has pissed me off so bad. So I started this process July 24, and it was October 27 when I finally received my recommendation from the doctor!!!! Then it stayed on my bariatric doc's desk for another week. They sent everything off to my insurance company Nov. 10.

 

Also, I decided that I was going to tell a couple of family member, thinking I would get some support. I only received positive comments from my step mom and grandmother. I was told that I am just lazy and need to exercise, because I was an athlete in college. That was 20 FREAKIN years ago!!!!! Then my aunt tells me that fat women just runs in the family and I might as well get use to it!!!

 

And another thing!! my health. For the past two years I have managed diabetes with diet and exercise, now I am on diabetic meds, high blood pressure and high cholesterol. My feet and back are killing me!!! I keep developing a race where at my panty and bra lines, the doc says that is due to being overweight. All the weight that I lost for the first 6 months of the year, I have gained it back the last 6 months. I feel hopeless.

 

Then my husband the paramedic that works in an ER here. He saw a couple of patients that have came in with major complications due to the bypass not the sleeve, and he wanted me to call it off. He was upset about how sick these people were and he did not want me to got through it. I understand his concern, but he is supposed to be my rock. He is supposed to support me and my decisions, like I support him and his crazy a@* decisions!!!!! We went back and forth with him for a while. Now it seems like he is back on board.

 

Ok, now it is December 14th. We have less than 3 weeks in the new year, and I am still without surgery. I did not take a vacation this year because I wanted to save up for the surgery. So now I have 80 hours of vacation to take or I loose it!!! Also, we were told that we might not have our jobs next year, which means that I wont have insurance for the surgery. Also, we got our daughter into private school, so with no job she goes back to these bull sh** public schools that don't care about the kids education. So next year is not looking promising for me. In my mind I keep saying that I should not speak negativity because what I speak comes to be. So I am trying to stay positive -that I will still have a job and insurance, and my daughter gets to stay in this awesome schools that is so much help to her!!!!

 

So I am asking everyone who reads this, please pray for me, pray for my health, my job and my family. And please send positive thoughts my way.



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Hang in there, he will always make a way. I started this process on 4 May and still no date, over 8 months. I'm just waiting patiently, I read somewhere that some ins companies take up to two years to approve.

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I have been going through similar issues.. as said above - He will make a way to get you where you need to go! Never give up hope, just try and get more stubborn, if you want it bad enough...You gotta give Hope all You Got!!

God Bless you and your family!!!! :)

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I am so sorry for everything you have been through. Let me start by saying I totally understand. I have been where you are....exactly. My doctor didn't like my surgeon choice. My boyfriend did not support my decision at all- and ended up breaking up with me right before my surgery. I thought I was going to lose my job the year before my surgery.

I decided that I wanted VSG in November of 2010. I explained very very patiently my surgeon choice to my doctor. I explained very patiently my decision for Bariatric surgery. And I explained that I needed her support- and if I couldn't get it- I would have to switch doctors.

After doing battle with my insurance company and what felt like everyone in the free world....I was approved for my surgery in July 2011.

I've been told that my experience actually went rather smooth some people have to do battle for years.

I had my surgery August 1st 2011. I was 260lbs in Jan 2011 I was 245 on the day of surgery- and today I am 195. This is the best decision I have ever made in my life. I was on 3 types of Blood pressure medication that occasionally worked. I have not had to take a single pill since surgery. I was 3 points away from being Diabetic- now my blood work is totally normal.

I understand what you are going through. I will keep you in my prayers. Hang in there. If you ever need to talk or need extra support feel free to drop me a line. Our stories are so similar it is scary.

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So sorry to hear the frustration. When you know something is right for you and obstacles are placed in your way at every turn.. IT's HARD!! I have added you to my growing prayer list. What God has for you no man can stand in the way. Please hang tough. It took me a very long time from point of decision to point of surgery took almost a year. Be prepared.. when it goes to your insureance they may ask for a 6 month diet schedule. Your bariatric doc should have had you on that to begin with.. just in case the insurance asked for it. This site is positive and supportive so you've found one good thing in your journey. Hang in there!!

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I'm so sorry! I can relate to a lot of the things you've said through my journey. Things will fall into place, you have to believe that. I personally refused to discuss surgery with those who were negative about it. A lot of the negativity was from lack of knowledge about this procedure and assumptiions.

I was a diabetic on insulin and other meds to manage other health problems as well. I got the run around from the insurance company and decided to go through it and did self pay. Although it's been difficult financially, it was so worth the investment. I am off all meds to include my insulin shots, and have a life that I can enjoy with my family.. Keep your head up. All will work itself out.

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Wow, your plate has been full! I started the process last April. I approached my insurance company and they said I had to go through 12 months of weight loss counseling. So twice a month I talk to a lady on the phone. I will be released by May 2, 2012 and I'm trying to schedule my surgery for July as that is the only time I can take off a couple of weeks (I work for a university and the faculty are gone at that time).

I'm wondering if you could just show up to the Dr.'s office and say that you will wait for the paperwork you need explaining that you only have a few weeks left in this year (for what it's worth).

I have also faced negativity when telling friends. It's almost like they are jealous but some just don't understand how I've lived for the past 25 years. I've decided not to tell anyone else!

I will pray for you and follow your posts to check in on you. The people on this site really do care about each other. God Bless, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

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im sorry to hear of the trouble you are having.. i recently joined this site.. and everyone here is very supportive. I just got sleeved 4 days ago and if it weren't for the people here i don't know what i would do.. everyone helps everyone out. answering questions. getting support, and just having an ear if its needed.. i wish you good luck in your journey because it sounds like you have done the research and you have mentally prepared for the journey. Now you just need some tlc from those closest to you.

My family was doing the same thing. they really didn't want me to get this surgery. and just as you i have been an athlete all my life even in college but after 4 knee surgeries its very hard to stay active. I have to admit its not easy trying to get support from family when all they can see is the negative, but they will come around. You just need to make sure that you are doing this for yourself and not for anyone else. If they dont like well then that kind of their problem and if they truely love you no matter what they will be on your side.

good luck to you and i will keep you in my prayers!

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My heart goes out to you and your situation. Due to the fact that you rely on prayer then hopefully it will give you comfort to know that it is in God's timing when this will work out. You do not see it now but there is a reason, and it is a good one why it has not happened yet. One day you will not only be blessed with the perfect right time to be sleeved but also understand why it is then and not now. Those words are meant to comfort you. Rely on your faith foremost!!! Your husband is scared, that is the real issue, you do not need that right now, but reconize what it is, It truly isn't opposition, it just feels like it right now. I see it that he loves you a whole bunch. Just wondering,... could you turn that vacation time into $'s and save up for MX. There are some great Dr. down there that have tons of experience, some way more than in the states. If that is even a consideration, be VERY choosy!!! Do not go on price alone. I myself have not been sleeved yet, finances fell through a month or so ago and everything seemed to turn against me getting sleeved. I now honestly see how much better off I am for that happening. It was disheartning and I cried for days but now I am so much better off. I should be sleeved here in the next couple of months. I can not wait!!! One more thing, you said something that was key ... STAY POSITIVE, EVEN IF IT LOOKS BLEEK, that is the only way and fastest way to make it happen. A good attitude, especially dealing with red tape goes a lot further than being negitive. I would want to push someones paperwork through that was sweet, even go the extra mile, verses someone agrravated and hostile. God Bless you Sleeve Sister, I am praying for you right now!!!!

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I will pray for you.Remember God has a plan for you. Maybe these obstacles are really an invite for you to decide if you really want this surgery and a time to reflect if you are willing to do the follow-up. Use this time constructively- read the posts on this website so you really know what you are in for. Go on a pre-op diet. Start slowly-maybe just cutting out all sugar- then cutting out all the useless carbs. I am sure your husband is just afraid. Spend this time educating yourself and him about the risks of this surgery. ALso go to other doctors' seminars and if you can, their support groups. This surgery is a change in lifestyle- you don't just get the surgery and viola, your different. See if you can figure out why you eat, besides hunger. I just got sleeved Tues 12/13, and even though I have been uncomfortable, I am confident I made the right decision for me and I honestly don't care about the negative people's opinions are . My husband has become very supportive and he also understands his part in my weight gain, and how those actions can't continue. (lack of wanting to exercise with me, junk food in the house, etc.) Try not to be overwhelmed and take things one day at a time. Good luck to you.

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I could have written some parts of your story! I'll add my feeble prayers to the list. All I can say is good luck on your journey and stand up for yourself. Your PCP sounds like a control freak to me.

Let your surgeon's office know what you have told us. Perhaps that will help to get you in for surgery faster.

Believe me, if VSG is in God's plan for you, it WILL happen, no matter what obstacles you are facing in your life. Mine did, and I certainly had no idea how it was going to occur.

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