Day 13

This is getting easier every day, but I still can't decide if that is a good thing. Sitting with my coworker at In-n-Out eating yogurt while he eats a gorgeous double double just kills me. I look forward to the "mushies" stage, which is next. I've been eating yogurt, apple sauce, and baby food but plan on introducing more soup and mashed potatoes in a day or so. I really want something solid in my stomach. But I know that my stitches/sutures are healing and I am definitely not willing to compromise in that regard. But goodness, I can't wait for a month to go by so I can eat a darn taco! Or at least taco meat, cheese, and lettuce!

Someone on here said that "mushies" can include beans and mashed potatoes. Mashed potatoes sound SO GOOD right now. The cream of broccoli soup is satisfying but just is not enough. I'm also not doing great with the protein. I'm getting my liquids in via tea and water but that's about it. I don't quite understand the extreme need for protein. Maybe it just helps with these hunger pangs.

I wonder how people do with jamba juice, robeks, juice-it-up, etc? I would love to have one of their "lite" smoothies. I think the fruit might be too much sugar. At least it's natural sugar rather than processed crap.

Occassionally my side hurts, near my far right suture, but it's a fleeting feeling. I know the muscle under there is still healing so I need to be careful. I'm still worried about a hernia.

In news other than food/surgery, my friends are wildly successful in their respective far away places and I'm anxiously awaiting news from my graduate school of choice. I should be getting a yes or no for my masters program any day now, and the anxiety is just killing me! If I don't get in I will feel like an absolute failure.

I think I'm down approximately 15 lbs. Probably more now because I weighed myself yesterday. That's a nice feeling, but I can't wait to exercise and wear smaller clothing. When I start to exercise I will feel better overall, I think.

My Mom is super supportive, which is great. She sees this as an investment... an investment in everything, I suppose.

OH I'm having major issues with my period! I've been on it for over a week now and it should continue through this week (according to my pill box). I'm used to my period being expected and predictable but it came on suddenly and just won't stop. This happened to me when I started the pill years ago and my period lasted for A MONTH. Can you believe that!? I hope that doesn't happen again!