18 days till surgery

I tought id keep a blog for myself so i can look back and see how, and what ive done in the next year.

I started losing weight with my own will power feb 09. i started at 287lbs and got down 219. I had tried weight watchers which i think i lost 15lbs in 4 month, i also tried HGC shots i lost about 20lbs. i have gained some of the weight i have lost now and im really upset with myself. How come i cant lose the weight and control what im doing and keep it off? why do i have to eat almost nothing in order to lose weight? Why cant i be like my friend who is 120 and eats a mcdoubles with a 4 peice of chicken nuggets on it? I know WHY,WHY,WHY.

Oct 11th is going to be the start of something new! im nervous and excited at the same time!!!

LETS GET THIS,

Kerri