When I was a younger woman I had a pretty banging hot body. Of course, I seldom appreciated it. Today I look at some people's goal weights and its what I used to weigh when I thought I needed to lose weight. This morning I had lost another pound and I was so excited. Then I got tickled at myself. I was excited because I weigh 208 lbs. Ten years ago I would have been horrified to weigh 208 lbs. I guess its all relative and it depends on your perspective.

My other concern is dressing appropriatly. When I was younger there were times when I could dress a little too provocative. Since I've gained so much weight it really hasn't been an issue. Except for the occasional low cut sweater at a party. So, now that I have aged some and I'm looking forward to fitting back into cute clothes but where should I buy these clothes? I don't want to look like a party girl, but I don't want to be in mom jeans for the rest of my life either. You know that girl who was the cheerleader, prom queen and you run into her thirty years later and shes not aware that time has moved? Yea, I don't want to be her (not that I was ever a cheerleader, prom queen). I have a fear that one day I'm going to look up and Stacy London and Clinton Kelley are going to be standing in front of me with a film crew because someone has staged a "What Not To Wear" intervention.

And for this entry this is my final concern (that I will post, today). Pre-surgery - to wax or not to wax? That is the question. After my egd I realize that no one sees my feet so I'm not concerned about a pedicure. But, I assume I'm going to be pretty close to naked and should I wax my lady parts? I'm thinking that maybe just a bikini wax instead of the full brazilian may be the best choice. I don't know how I made that decision, but for some reason since I'm not going to brazil and just to the surgical suite, maybe thats the best.