Self Acceptance

I struggle with self acceptance and Im not sure y? I hoping with the weight loss and more respect for myself this will no longer be an issue. I have always wanted to fit in with my girlfriends but I feel I stand out like a sore thumb. I used to be a social butterfly and now a days im a hermet crab. I struggle with being around a crowd of people It makes me very anxious. Im not my normal bubbly friendly self. Im shy quiet and come off rude and snobby but by no means am I any of that. With this weight loss journey im on im hopping to find me again. Lose weight and gain self acceptance and I know I can do it with support and motivation. And When I go out I can feel great and have a good time instead of worrying about hiding my fat rolls or when I sit down can you see my back fat.....My goal is to go out have fun for me and no one else and look great doing it......

Being a single mom I don't go out often so this will be all new to me again. It's a chore to get me to go to the store then I have to worry about what Im going to wear (not to look cute) just to make sure I don't look like a clown in clothes that are to tight or that don't fit me. I usually wear jeans and an oversized t-shirt that way Im covered and don't feel suffocated. So im just kinda of rambling on then point of my blog is to gain self acceptance back. I have taken responsibility for me being overweight and out of shape now I want my self acceptance back and I WILL GET IT!!!!