I just can't get it together

I am so weak when it comes to food control. I just got my first fill on November 10th and I feel as if I didn't get a fill. I don't feel any ristriction and I am hungry as if I didn't get banded . When I went for my first fill, I weight in and gain 10 lbs. How embarrasing is that? My surgery was November 4th and a week after that I had lost a total of 35lbs (with the pre-op) but put back 10 lbs. I just can't get it together. I want to lose weight so bad however, being that food goes down with no problems, I'm not doing the food measuring thing right. There are foods that I shouldn't be eating and I know this, yet I eat. Another thing is that my sergeon told me that my port flipped. She hit me 6 times with the needle trying to get it in the port. She tried turing it a bit so that she can someone put the needle in. She claims she was able to fill in 3.5 cc but how do I know if it worked. She also told me if next time she has a hard time, I might need revision surgery. I pray all goes well. I need to lose this weight.