Stupid accident and completely sidetracked

Ok I am a HUGE clutz!! I am always doing something stupid, walking into things, dropping stuff. I am always the one to spill something or knock something over.

Well 3 weeks ago, Saturday August 7th to be exact, I went to my interval training class at the gym. The first part of the class is with the step platform. I have been doing these type of classes for YEARS! So what does stupid me do, I jumped up on the step and must have stepped on the edge of the step instead of the middle, turned my ankle sideways and then fell on it. Took me a minute to realize what the hell happened, thought I just twisted my ankle and it'll be okay. Attempted to finish my class but within a few minutes it was a large swollen, bruised , PAINFUL mess.

Left the gym and went to the hospital for an x-ray, no fracture thankfully but a bad sprain. They gave me an aircast and crutches, said if its not better to call ortho.

I am also stubborn and put it in my head that its not broken, it'll heal on its own. Waited a week and still limping horribly, and in pain, finally went to ortho to find out I tore a ligament. He ordered a new brace and physical therapy. Now its been close to 2 weeks that I havent been in the gym, sitting home, bored, eating garbage I shouldnt be touching. Limped my ass into the gym with the brace on and did the elliptical, figured that was no impact. Has slowly been getting better but i still cant take an impact on that ankle and i have no lateral mobility to it. Now its 3 weeks and im still in this stupid brace, still pushing everyday in the gym to see how much I can do. 3 weeks and i still have a swollen, painful ankle. WHen the hell is this going to get better and how the hell am I going to explain to my surgeon all the crap I ate. So mad at myself so this!!