Solitairy confinement!

Yup, that's what if feels like. Solitairy confinement. That's because I haven't told anyone about being banded 18 days ago. I am married, have kids, extended family, friends...And I managed to fly under the radar. It's a bit wierd that no one questioned me more about being in the hospital overnight, but when I said "I don't want to talk about it" , well, they didn't talk about it. Now I'm anxiously waiting for my first fill in about 2 1/2 weeks. I find it a struggle going to restaurants with friends/family and not being able to eat like the rest of them (big eaters!) I stick out like a sore thumb being a big woman eating a small portion of a healthy meal. I feel like a hipocrite. (spell check!!) But I can't and DON"T want to go back to my old habits. I want to be thinner. Not thin, just thinner. I figure losing about 75 lbs will do me good. If I can go for more, it's a bonus.

I really like the june bugs 2010 posts, they get me through the day when things are not going as smoothly as planned:rolleyes:. It's nice to know that other people are going through the same things I am, and it's nice talking about it. A great support group. Well, till next time...