Panic Attack

Yesterday I had a panic attack and had to leave work. It was the second time in 3 years that I had to leave work early because I was sick so that was no big deal. But as I was sitting doing drops, I just got to thinking about how stressed out Robert has been about not having a job and my back started hurting, then my head and then my blood started racing inside me and all these thoughts came over me and I just had to leave. I cried all the way home. I got home took a Percocet and a Xanax and settled down. Then Robert and I ran a few errands. It didn't take me long to get back to normal and it was nice spending time with him. We went and looked at a Nissan Altima and I test drove one...not the one I wanted but a 4 cylinder, I want a V6. And it drove nice so now I want one. Robert says I have to wait the 3 years until mine is paid off so I am going to put whatever extra money towards my car payment and get it paid off fast. I just need to pay off the credit card but that won't take long after we get back from vacation so I am happy about that. I just need to make some more money and get my car paid off now. I love the look of the Altima and I'm sure the V6 is faster that the 4 cylinder. I can't believe they didn't have any V6's on the lot to test drive. Stupid if you ask me because that is what I wanted to test drive. He wouldn't let me get on the interstate and that is where I do most of my driving so it wasn't a great experience to begin with. I might just end up going to Denver and looking there. My husband is doing good, he is still looking for a job and hopefully can get one before tax season but I know he will definately get one for tax season because of his CPA license.

My eating was out of control again last night but I didn't eat anything bad for me just a lot of food. I ate a big thing of watermelon and it has a lot of sugar in it but it works down to about nothing when you eat it. It tasted so good. Then I had some nuts. I had a cup of mashed potatoes for dinner. It was good. We went to PF Chang's for lunch and I had 2 ribs, some soup, and 2 dumplings. That filled me up so that was good. Well I have to get in the shower now so have a good day and good luck losing.