Being Reborn

I see getting the lap band as being reborn....my rebirth is July 15th 2010.

Right now I am trying to figure things out and do what the nutritionist and surgeon asked but it's not easy to get rid of bad habits!

Should be eating right now and exercising but my fat mindset thinks "why not wait since the change is coming soon enough why start now?" I know that is fat thinking but it's is something I am struggling with right now. Want to be honest here....I didn't get this big because I was lazy....I got this big because I love food....so giving it up before surgery is very hard....IF I could have done it without the surgery, then I wouldn't be getting the lap band!

Okay that said, when I do eat...I feel so stupid...another day I could have changed my bad habits and been closer to goal...but that is how things have been playing out for 20 years now....

Praying to GOD that the lap band will help me start a new way of living! I am going to behave and be committed to the lap band way of life but for now it just is a struggle!

It's a tool and it's my last hope to correct myself and get back to being healthy and in better shape! I know I will never be that person I was at 24 but any shape that is below 200 will be awesome for me!

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