Oh my gosh

Well here we go!! I started this process quite awhile ago and finally got okay'd by the insurance about two days ago. I was scheduled to see the surgeon the very next day (yesterday april 22nd) and was told my surgery date will be May 4th!:confused: I had no idea it would happen that fast after the insurance approval. I started my pre op diet today! I am scared to death and really excited all mixed together and don't know whether to laugh or cry. I am so ready for this but I still have a part of me that keeps saying I can do this on my own and what if I hate it! Don't get me wrong, I have wanted to lose weight for a very long time now and have been unable to. I I think that is mainly nerves and second guessing myself! I know I need it and am very unhappy with how I look now. My self esteem suffers terribly. I am freaking out a bit. I have read too many blogs about the bad things that can happen. Did everyone have doubts about if it was totally necessary and freak out like I am? I am just a spaz:lol:

Cold feet is VERY normal! I was working on it almost a year from the day I decided to look into WLS and I still had some nervousness. Come read my blog (I'm a year from banding yesterday) and get yourself into the right frame of mind...it's the best thing I've ever done. Trust me, I tried EVERY diet and I did great at a lot of them...save yourself the heartache and the lost time, get the band and STOP dieting! -BG

I had my blog here for over a year and just moved it, but anyone can view it; blog here (take a peak at my first vlog on 4/22/10):

4/22/10 Happy Bandiversary! ~ THE SWEET SPOT

I feel EXACTLY like you do. I am having my surgery on Wednesday and am scared to death as well. I know I need this, but second guess myself as well. It is such a life changing thing. I keep moving forward as I am committed, but I understand. WE CAN DO IT!!

It is very normal to feel nervous and scared. I simply thought about things ONE DAY AT A TIME and all went very well. I am 6 days post op!