I forgot to mention that I now weigh 290 lbs so of course it is necessary! I almost cried at weigh in yesterday! Denial is not just a river in egypt!:wink2:
Well here we go!! I started this process quite awhile ago and finally got okay'd by the insurance about two days ago. I was scheduled to see the surgeon the very next day (yesterday april 22nd) and was told my surgery date will be May 4th!:wink2: I had no idea it would happen that fast after the insurance approval. I started my pre op diet today! I am scared to death and really excited all mixed together and don't know whether to laugh or cry. I am so ready for this but I still have a part of me that keeps saying I can do this on my own and what if I hate it! Don't get me wrong, I have wanted to lose weight for a very long time now and have been unable to. I I think that is mainly nerves and second guessing myself! I know I need it and am very unhappy with how I look now. My self esteem suffers terribly. I am freaking out a bit. I have read too many blogs about the bad things that can happen. Did everyone have doubts about if it was totally necessary and freak out like I am? I am just a spaz:lol:
