Crazy bus

I am having a ruff day today. I am in the worst mood. I am sure it is because I was up late last night. Just as I was getting into bed, my youngest work up and was up for like three hours until finally I just put him in bed with me. Then my other two woke up sometime in the night and crawled into bed with us too. So not only did I go to bed at like 3:30 am but then I had three little "crumb crushers" in the bed kicking me and taking all the room until I finally gave up and just got up at 7:00.

I feel like I am on the crazy bus and my children are driving. When do I get some days off? My Dh is so awsome and trys to understand when I am like "I have to get out of this house". But sometimes he's like you don't want to "hang out" with me? I try to tell him its not him I just need to get out of this house. He goes to work everyday and has "me" time, even if it is working, it is still not at home.

I have so many emotions running through me at this point I am just confused. I am so ready for school to start but then again I think I should just enjoy my break. I am ready for my band and feel like these next 13 days will NEVER get here. I am ready for my DH to get his band too so we can be banded together. I am also stressing about money. We are so freaken broke. Heck we were broke 1 year ago and I have just made it worse by startin school. I need to ask my mom if she will co-sign for a student loan and I know she is going to shoot me down. (she belives in no credit, pay cash for everything)ahhhhh I just have so much in my brain I can't think......I need a vacation. Just one day away from EVERYTHING... Well I want my DH with me it would be nice to just get away with him ALONE.

I am going to lay my son down so I can take a nap. To be continued.....