Saying goodbye

14 days and counting..... The feelings I feel are so weird. I know this sounds stupid, but I almost feel like I'm in a prison and soon to be let free. Food rules my life right now, It is on my mind all the time. I am so scared for my DD, she is doing my old tricks. She says shes helping clean the kitchen by getting her brothers plates to the sink, and on the way she is eating the leftovers on their plate. She sneeks food, and is a true bordom eater. The difference between her and her brothers are night and day. The boys don't ack like they care about food at all. She thinks about food all day like I used to. I have noticed when The kids are playing outside all day she eats just a little, but when they are inside she ask for food alot more. We have to get out of this house and move our butts. Today we are going to ride bikes if it doesn't rain, if it does I am going to take them to mall so we can walk. I know they will beg for everything but at least its not food. I have high hopes for this surgery to makeover my entire family, including my dd. Maybe she will see the examples dh and I are setting and be able to follow them.

I am going to up my workout this week. Instead of one hour, I am shooting for 1 1/2 hours. 3 thirty min. intervals. This week I am doing a no fat diet to get my body and mind ready for this surgery. Even though I am not on a pre op diet I want my brain to begain the process of letting go of all this crap I put in my mouth. I have had so many last suppers, I think I am finally ready to say good bye to over eating and stuffing myself. I am ready to start loving my self again.

12:30- 30 mins on cross trainer.

My heart goes out to your daughter -- I remember being like that - my mom hid all the 'goodies' and doled them out - which only made me sneak cookies at night instead -- we ARE the role models for our children - that is so true - and I think it would upset her more to know that you 'see her eating extra food' - so the best tactic would be to just get her to exercise with you - tell her you need an exercise buddy - it is hard to do alone - make her feel special and important and that you need her - keep her busy - make a family rule that there is NO eating between meals - and healthy snacks - like an apple w/peanut butter or some of the sugar-free, low-calorie ice cream snacks like No Pudge or Slim-A-Bear -- go for exercise as a family instead of ice cream, things like that --- if it isn't in the house it can't be eaten -- and have the boys take their OWN plate to the kitchen.......she'll appreciate this in the long run - and they can just blame you (the mean mom lol) for the changes - they will thank you when they are older and healthy!