Scary

I've been a little scared lately.

Last week, I had an episode. I felt really closed in and I thought I was gonna die if I didn't eat something. There's no way I could have really been THAT hungry. I had breakfast that morning and had had lunch a couple hours prior. I just had a sudden anxiety about needing to eat and not being able to (I was at work and had a few hours til it was time to leave).

Then yesterday, I was at my friends house, and she commented on how small my face looked. She said "you're gonna be itty bitty!" And the thought had never occurred to me that I just may be petite under all this. I have no idea, because I've never been thin. The thought scared me, and I am not sure why.

I guess I'm scared of the unknown, or of change. I know I shouldn't be scared. The Bible says that I haven't been given a spirit of fear. I have no choice but to go on and welcome what's to come - and to be anxious for nothing.

I better get off the computer - I promised my kids I'd take them to the pool. Wow - maybe after a few months, I'll be in a bathing suit, too. Scary.. lol.