Does anyone else try to fight the lap band? :cool2: I know that sounds very lame ... but I sometimes find myself doing that!!! STUPID ... I KNOW. :smile2:

When I first got the lapband, I stuck to the program. I was motivated by results. The weight came off, slow, but it was consistent. Then I hit a plateau, that seemed to go on forever (more than 8 months). I went for fill after fill, and when I did get restriction, I still did not lose. Instead of turning to our nutritionist, or upping my exercise, I eventually ate around the band. I think I was using it to cope. Dipping my pizza in oil, or anything in oil, making candy bars a MEAL! You get the idea. STUPID STUPID STUPID.

I think the food addiction is stronger than I realized, but I've decided to STOP!!! I promise.

I've been planning my daily intake the night before, or the morning off, depending on my time. I just pull out a small notebook and jot it down. I am finding that if I plan, and IF I don't let myself get too hungry.

And learning to deal with life without turning to food is the real challenge. Going to go search the boards for more on that.

I'm done whining.

You've got the idea. I'm so loose at the moment I even can eat pancakes at breakfast time. But I know for me now, maintaining, the answer is not getting tighter and tighter. I've become quite adept at eating round the band if I want to.

The answer is to plan, to prepare, to stick to my plan and to meet every challenge where I want to turn to food head on. Today, tomorrow and every day for the rest of my life. I am not perfect every day. Sometimes I fail utterly. So do "naturally thin" people. It doesnt matter as long as it doesnt happe too often.

That is so true... 'eating around the band' ... I am v. tight right now and I'm kind of mad that I didn't just plan and work with the previous fill. This has limited me so much. Before I could eat egg for breakfast, and maybe 1/2 slice of toast. I could have a salad for lunch, etc. Now I have to have liquid for morning and lunch and then something soft for dinner. But I am not going to fight it. It won't hurt me to eat this way for a while, and then once I lose more, it will adjust and I'll be able to eat more.

Also you mentioned PLAN ... this is so true!!!! I have been waking up, sitting on the edge of my bed and planning my day... eating and exercise. Then to back it I'm entering my foods at sparkpeople.com.

At first I was like this is ridiculous all this time spent on this losing weight then I decided to allow myself all the time I needed... because this is the 'project of my life.' Everything else can wait.

I'm trying to loose weight pre operatively I think I am looking at a May Surgery.....

Since I've been having such a hard time I have come to realize that I think much like an alcoholic is addicted to alcoholic, we are all addicted to food. I honestly feel like it's very similar. We talk constantly about quitting, but we can't. I feel like I am constantly fighting internally to make myself stop. You should find an over eater anonymous class. People say they are great.

I also find myself fighting the band. I don't want to. It's like my body takes over and I have no control... like an out-of-body experience, I can't explain it.

I will force food down, no matter how much it hurts. I will wash meals down with water so I can eat more. I will stick my finger down my throat to throw up so I can continue eating. WHY DO I DO THIS??????