But for the first time since being banded I have gained weight. I think I have put on about 9 lbs, but it is right before TOM so it might be less. Basically I was too tight and was eating slider foods. Add to that I have had some very serious bad news from my mom ( really not comfortable elaborating further) and I slipped into some old emotional eating habits. I have also been tackling some anxiety issues. So I am calling myself out because I'm not going down this road again. I updated my ticker to reflect the gain :w00t: I've always posted my successes so I think it is only honest to post a set back too.

Ivy...sorry about the news.

Now that you recognize the pattern, maybe it's easier to stop it?

I gained weight back in March when I was unfilled for being too tight and I have yet to lose it. I don't want to be too tight again (losing 10 pounds in one week was not fun, even if I did do a little dance on the scales.)

Good luck to you!

Ivy, hang in there. Congrats on the accountability to yourself! I'm proud of you for that! To me, that's a huge part of our battle.

To put this in perspective though, I know you think this is horrible and a really bad problem, BUT what would have happened in the same circumstances BEFORE banding?? Really take a look at that. I know you've reverted to old habits and slider foods but what of the volume? And you KNOW being too tight is probably worse than being too lose.

This is by no means to discourage you but in the last 2 days I've been HUNGRY. I'm un-filled. I've gain about 2lbs back, so far. I don't go for a fill til Tuesday, I'm hoping to not gain much more before then but you know what? What would have panicked me before banding, doesn't panic me now. I know it's part of the process and it should come back off again.

I'm not really talking about the 2lbs, or even your 9lbs. I'm talking about our mindsets. It's different now. At least is feels like it to me. When things are going wrong, crap in life, or needing a fill/un-fill, this is part of the process and it's okay. As long as you catch it and try to do something about it. You've taken notice and you're going to work on it. You'll be okay!

Life stuff may not get better but you know what you can do to help yourself. Get an un-fill, change your eating and work on breaking those habits and replacing them with good ones.

Please try to give yourself a break. Take good care of yourself. Be accountable and make your changes. Do what you can, for yourself. You can't control the outside stuff but you can control the inside stuff.

Take care!!

You've lost 120 pounds! That's great! Try not to beat yourself up so much, especially since this is the first time you have gained since being banded. But I do understant how you feel. I gained 2 pounds this week and I was very unhappy. I am going for a fill next week.

The hardest part is usually recognizing what you have done. You know what you've done. Now is the time to forgive yourself and move on. Even with the gain, your weightloss is awe inspiring! Be proud of what you have accomplished. I hope that you are able to get back on track soon.