At 1:30 today, I will be having my surgery. Im very scared, and very excited to start this new life. But the scary part is the surgery. I want nothing to go wrong. I know its different from a c section, but with the c section, I almost died. And this scares me that Im undergoing another surgery. But, I hear a lot of positive results. All I know is when I come home tonight, I wont feel the same as I do now. I have gone from 333lbs, to 316 in 2 weeks, on the liquid diet. So, Im really optimistic about the outcome of the surgery. I can do this and I will make it work for me.

Previously I was seeing a doc back in September of last year, doing the HCG pregnancy hormone shot, and phentramene. By December, I was hospitalized cause my heart was acting funny. They found that I had a PFO. Which is a birth defect in the heart. I never knew I had this until last year. With the doctor I had, they checked my metabolism, and come to find out its quite normal. So I feel that I will be able to do this as long as I can exercise. That is really my problem, along with the bad choices of food that Im eating.

Last night I went as far as writing myself a will, just in case things dont turn out so well. I know what youre thinking, I will be ok, but some how I cant tell my brain that. I have to be at the hospital to be prepped in one hour. Ugggh.

Im going to try to write tonight. Im going to let everyone know how it went for me. Anyway, thats all I have for now, Partly, this thread is to rant about my fears, and secondly, I wanted everyone to know that today is the day. :smile::tongue2:

They found I had a PFO when I did my preop testing and I did great with my surgery on 5/28/2008.

Looking forward to your post-op update :-)

Good luck to you! I know just how you feel. I'm starting to get scared, too. Looking forward to hear how you did.

Good luck, I will say a prayer for you. I remember I was very scared before my surgery too.

Ok, so it would be easy to give you the "everything will be fine spill" but the fact is that anytime you have surgery there will be risk involved. HOWEVER, living obese is higher risk than surgery. Keeping on the weight for years will increase your risk of heart disease, cancer, diabetes, even stroke. All which could result in surgery. You are doing the right thing for your health, and your family. You have made a decision to take control of your future, and you should be proud of yourself. Take pride in your bravery, and "trust" that everything will be fine. I will say a prayer for you today, and keep you in my thoughts. Good Luck!!!

Leslie,

I will be thinking about you today and wishing you all the very best! I look forward to hearing your story when it is over. I understand scared. I was terrified on my surgery day - but now I am 4 days out and I am a happy camper. Minimal pain and I am not hungry. Doesn't get any better. Also, I am 30 years older than you - so that should give you some encouragement!!:tongue2: