Pardon my language... but I'm bummed....

Tomorrow I start my 10 day pre-op diet.... So today was my last day to enjoy food.

My boyfriend took the day off of work, and we planned a trip to Navy Pier and a few musuems, and we planned to go to a fancy restaurant for dinner.

This morning, I woke up....

AND I WAS SICK AS HELL!!!!!!!

I CAN'T taste anything. =( =( =(

I feel soooo run down. We had to skip out on all of our plans and just see a movie and get dinner (which I couldn't taste or enjoy since my nose is so stuffed and my tonsils are so swollen =( Soooo... that was how my "last meal" went.

I'm bummed.

The next few days are going to be super-super-super rough.

I'm moving out of my house & onto my own for the first time, and my moving day is this Monday.

I'm sick as hell, I can't smoke, can't eat, and I'll be moving all of my stuff. Oh, and on top of it all, it's "that time of the month". Yay.

On top of all that, I'm going through all these horrible guilty emotions about moving out and leaving my parents (I'm an only child) and I'm having bad anxiety about that AND the surgery.

!!!!!SOMEBODY PRAY FOR ME!!!!!!

Ahhhhhh and i thought I was having it rough... You will get through this... I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers... Take Care (((((((((hugs))))))))))

It never rains but it pours! Good grief! Can you delay your moving?

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger!

We are only as strong as our past.

You CAN do this, you WILL do this, you MUST do this!

Someday it will be the future and you will be able to look back at this as a distant memory, one that made you stronger and better. It's times like these that teach us to pray hard...maybe that's part of the lesson...keep praying! It makes it harder to use swear words. I can always tell when I'm stressed, small, well-placed swearings tend to get through...get centered, focused, and pray.

You will manage fine. It just seem overwhelming right now because so much is happening at one time but you will look back one day and say gee, those weren't biggies at all. As for being an only child I know how you feel as I was one too. You would have felt guilty even if you had gotten married and move and really when is the good time? You will be fine, you are just growing up.

I'm on my 2nd day of the liquid diet....

I need to vent.

I don't know if I can handle all this at once emotionally. The two people who are my new room mates (two male friends of mine who are gay) are getting on my nerves. I don't know if it's because I'm cranky from not eating... but I feel like a wreck. I just wish I could go back home in crawl into bed.

I don't have the energy to unpack, and I don't have the energy to deal with people, especially them right now. They know I'm on this liquid diet, and they keep on going on and on about how starving they are. There are things that bother me that I never noticed before, like how superficial they can be. They feel the need to criticize everyone who passes us on the street. I really just want to hit them.

I'm not too far away from home (I just moved downtown and my home is in the suburbs... about 30 minutes away) but I feel like I'm a million miles away.

I don't feel like I'm emotionally ready to handle all of this at once.

I can totally relate... My best friend is gay. I went and stayed the weekend with him and his partner last weekend and it was like baby sitting a crazy neurotic person... LOL. I felt wiped out by the end of the weekend. They make great friends but can be a bit high maintenance. I hope you get over being sick. That is no fun at all. Moving isn't either. Are you moving for college? I stayed with my parents till I was 21 and was homesick as heck when I did finally move. Best wishes on your liquid diet, Teresa

You have a lot of changes hitting you at once -- no wonder you're a wreck! Maybe you should say something to your roommates before things get out of hand. . . "Guys, I'm on a liquid diet for 10 days, and I realize you can eat what you want, but could you cut me a little slack for now?" Can you cut yourself some slack, too? Liquid diets suck, band or no band, and you need to be gentle with yourself while you're going through this rough time. Enjoy the gorgeous spring weather, take a few minutes to walk along the lake, feel the sun on your face, and remind yourself that you're going to get through this. Time is moving forward, and you're going to get your band.

PS: Trust me, no demographic group has a monopoly on superficiality -- or, for that matter, being high-maintenance.