To be honest, because my weight is going to kill me was at the bottom of my list. There had to be more for me if I was going to put out all that money. Maybe it's the way I'm wired but dying was the least of my worries.

As my band date draws closer, I get more apprehensive about going through with this. I'm sure that is normal and I'm not going to let it derail me, but what is keeping me on track is my list of reasons that I'm doing this. Those reasons haven't changed. I'm not able to do those things now, so why step off the path.

I think that listing out those reasons and looking at them will help everyone stay a little more motivated. If you think so too, please add your reasons here.

My Reasons:

~I'm tired of hurting every time I take a step

~I'm afraid I will leave my children to grow up alone (somehow this is not related to a fear of dying....it's about them)

~I want to be able to get down on the floor and play with my baby without wondering how long until I can't get back up

~I want my husband to think I'm attractive, not just the pictures of me when I was 16

~I want to be able to go to concerts, dinner, and ride airplanes and buses without being uncomfortable about not fitting in the seat

~I don't want to be out of breath walking upstairs with my laundry basket

~I don't want my oldest son to feel like I'm taking advantage of him because I ask him to do all the picking up off the ground

~I want to have the energy to clean my house play with my kids, and cook dinner all the same day.

1. To look good.

2. To feel good.

3. To find a man.

4. To be able to shop in the misses department.

5. To be able to enjoy the family vacation with my niece and nephew.

6. To ensure my health does not go down hill.

Sadly, my health was at the bottom of my list. I have no health issues but I know if I don't lose weight that will change.

1. To wear a size 16 again

2. To look more beautiful

3. Because I felt awful

4. Hated asking for a seat belt extender on the airplane

5. Tired of not being able to ride amusement park rides.

6. I wanted to be able to gain control.

7. I wanted to cross my legs again.

8. Didn't want to be winded going up a flight of stairs.