I’m 2 years out after very successful sleeve surgery. I lost over a hundred but maintaining has been extremely difficult. I’ve gained a little over 30 back and seem to be on a run away train.

I’m 52 and healthy, active. Currently weigh about 200-205 and am 5’2”. My highest weight was 283. I’m exhausted from the ups and downs of weigh loss and want to fix my body. I feel hungry all the time and can only eat a tiny bit if I don’t want to gain. I can however eat a lot physically. I’m so tired of the stress of my weight and can only imagine how much weight I will put back on at this rate. Most likely all of it.

My surgeon is suggesting DS surgery now before I gain more. I’m concerned about long term issues. Mostly the bathroom issues not the vitamin regime. I don’t know if I want to alter my body and create problems. And also if I do so in a year or 2 or 3 is the maintaining an issue again?

Would love to hear from people w similar stories (or not so similar). Would you do it again? Would you do it if you were me? Thank you so much in advance for your advise these forums are a godsend for real life education!

Hi onmyway,

It's a great question. I think I would probably do it again, but I also see the falsehoods in these surgeries. We are all so SHAMED by society and desperate to not feel that way that we basically mutilate our bodies to conform. I did it!! I get it!!

But what they don't tell you is that your body wants to go back to the original weight. And that you are setting yourself up for more potential shame and anguish as you gain the weight back. But it isn't your fault!! Your body is just doing what it's programmed to do.

I'd like to come to peace with my size. I eat well, I exercise, and that's who I am. I have not gained back significant weight but it's starting to come back after 3 years. And I have to decide if I'm going to live a tortured life of self hate or accept it and enjoy this life while I still have the privildge of being alive.

All the best :)