Approved. Happy/scared/excited/depressed

[J_Mkay 17]

Sorry this might be a long post.

So, I got the call this week that I have been approved for surgery. I have my pre-op consultation and physical on June 12th, then 2-3 weeks after that will be surgery. Exciting and scary! I've been working on this for months and months now. I feel like I should be more happy about it. I am happy but I'm more scared than I thought I would be. I've gone down this road before with the lap-band and didn't do well with it/ had some complications with it, so maybe that's part of why I'm more scared now than I was when I had the band surgery. I don't want to fail, and I know this is a forever change to my anatomy. I know it's my best shot at long term success. I guess I'm just overwhelmed with the fact that it's happening and my life will be forever changed. I'm also a little sad about it too. Maybe because my size has been kind of a safety blanket (if that makes any sense at all). And I have no idea what to expect because I've never been a normal weight before. I'm also sad because a good friend of mine at work (who was recently promoted within the department) who I thought would be supportive, has gone more into boss mode and being more concerned about work than my life/health, which has really made me sad. I have no problem getting the time off of work, but my department tries to guilt me into postponing any time I've had some sort of procedure done, but never does with anyone else. I'm just overwhelmed with emotions right now, and just needed to get some of it out. Thanks for listening.

[Matt Z 4,138]

Congrats, I was banded back in 2011, so I understand the pensiveness! Good Luck!

[domi 237]

It really helped me talking to a psychologist. My work situation sounds very similar to yours. I am finding that as I lose weight the tides are shifting. I have continued to do my job well and take care of myself. My coworker who thinks he's my boss is showing his true colors and people are noticing. People are also noticing that I am taking care of myself and my job. I am starting to get much more support from coworkers I never spoke to before. Hang in there. Think of yourself as the butterfly that will emerge from the cocoon.