I’ve had a curious day. I forgot to weigh in first thing this morning. So I weighed just a few mins ago. It says I weigh 327. That is after my shake and coffee. I know, logically, that this doesn’t mean I’ve necessarily gained weight but it’s messing with my head.

Also, my blood sugars are not so good today but I cut down on my long acting insulin to see if it’d help with the lows. LOL. It did! Not to worried about that right now.

Nerves are coming into play. It’s not a freak out nerves but I am having a bout of the doubts. I know I’m going to do this but some things are worrying me. My mom is sick and she’s my support system. I’ll likely be alone more than not in the hospital. I have pretty severe social and general anxiety. So that’s a big worry. No matter what I’ll be alone overnight due to our critters needing one of us home.

I’m writing this down to let it go. I’ll do wonderfully!

@melsabells Yes, you will do wonderfully. Your doubts prove you’re human. I felt pretty secure about everything. Some anxiety the night before and during initial admitting at the hospital. Even then, I looked at my husband right before admitting, I rhetorically asked, “I really need this, right? I can’t lose weight any other way?” He said, “you need this.” I felt better after that.

I struggle with generalized anxiety. You are going to live moment-to-moment through this process. There’s no doubt in my mind that you will get through this just fine. And, about the 1 lb. weight gain, don’t sweat it. Weight can shift 1or 2 lbs. and not actually be true weight gain.

Sending love & light your way...☀️

thank you so much for the encouragement!

You're gonna do great, Melsa. Everyone has a bout of last minute "omg, what have I gotten myself into?" It's completely normal to stress out a little at the last minute.

Trust your saner self...who has been working toward this goal for months.

You are not gonna feel alone in the hospital. Everything is gonna happen so fast you'll be stunned:) And the nurses will come every few hours and take your blood and drive you crazy....you won't have a chance to feel lonely or afraid...too damned many people will be checking on you:)

You've got this. You really do. It's gonna be ok:)

You're gonna do great, Melsa. Everyone has a bout of last minute "omg, what have I gotten myself into?" It's completely normal to stress out a little at the last minute.
Trust your saner self...who has been working toward this goal for months.
You are not gonna feel alone in the hospital. Everything is gonna happen so fast you'll be stunned:) And the nurses will come every few hours and take your blood and drive you crazy....you won't have a chance to feel lonely or afraid...too damned many people will be checking on you:)
You've got this. You really do. It's gonna be ok:)

Thanks! I feel calmer right now but I know tomorrow will be hectic lol!

Yeah, you will do great! This is actually a walk in the park. It's a breeze. I didn't even need any narcotic pain killers. I'm doing fine on anti inflammatory drugs. Sheeeeeit, I already took a walk that was almost an hour long. Seriously, you got this!!!!

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1 hour ago, Mattymatt said:

Yeah, you will do great! This is actually a walk in the park. It's a breeze. I didn't even need any narcotic pain killers. I'm doing fine on anti inflammatory drugs. Sheeeeeit, I already took a walk that was almost an hour long. Seriously, you got this!!!!

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So happy for you that it’s going so well!

Thanks