Not so much about surgery, but this has been the hardest 2 weeks ever I have had 3 one loves pass away within 6 days of each other 2 from natural causes and 1 from being murdered by her ex boyfriend.... I feel real emotional right now I had to bury my uncle today , my aunt tomorrow and my childhood friend on Saturday ... I have 1 month 18 days til surgery and I really don't wanna start any bad habits and binge eat because of my current situation.... UGHHHHH !!!!!!!!

I am totally sorry for your moment in life right now. All I can say is, and it is not easy to find the right words for you, but if it were me, I would think what would my Uncle, my Aunt and my childhood friend want for me to do? They would want for you to be strong. Not knowing your pain, I am really hoping you can find the strength, courage and wisdom to be successful with yourself and know I am thinking about you. Be strong while you mourn, it will be hard but try and take care of your thoughts with all you have.