Here I am sitting in my car eating my salad with only vegetables and fat free dressing as described in my pre-op diet. I'm 6 days out and horrified. I'm on the verge of changing my mind. I'm having so many emotions I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm actually mourning the loss of food. Everything I see, my heart literally hurts. My mind constantly says you will never have that again. I don't have any underlying issues. I was never molested or abused in any manner. My parents have been married for 52 years. I just love food. I love the way it looks smells and tastes. I feel like I'm loosing a friend. I want to back out so bad but I need the surgery so bad. My health is horrible. I take 2 shots for diabetes and take 4 pills. Along with 2 blood pressure meds. Most of a I have a four year old daughter that I love so much and would die for. How ironic is it that I would die for her but at this very moment I'm dieing because I love food.

My daughter is my life. I'm doing this for. She needs me. She is more excited about me loosing weight than I am. Everything day she says Mommy when you loose weight we are going to have so much fun. She wants us to ride bikes, run, and jump. This morning she said when you loose weight we can wear the same dress and yours won't be tight. She just has this vision of us running through a field of flowers. She deserves this. So why am I having second thoughts. I need this so bad but I'm so afraid of the aftermath. Sorry for rambling but my mind I'd going 90 miles per hour

Congrats

Good luck on your surgery!

Good luck and congrats!

Congrats natur! I hope surgery was good and you are feeling better. Walk as much as you can, it will help the gas and pain. Looking forward to hearing your progress!

I hope your surgery went well and you are your way to a better, healthier life.

The first month is the hardest but you will make it through. Keep telling yourself that there isn't any food that is worth dying for and leaving your daughter motherless. My ex-husband spent six months in agony and unable to communicate, after having a stroke related to Type 1 diabetes. He died at 50. Seeing how he was treated in hospitals and nursing homes resulted in me having my WLS. I never want to be in the same position.

On 3/2/2017 at 1:48 PM, naturallyzee said:

My mind constantly says you will never have that again.

You are lucky you can have salad. I was stuck with just liquids, so be grateful you get to chew.

The amount of time your diet is limited is very short, about 6 months. Once you are healed you can eat just about anything. Hopefully at that point you won't want to.

I'm almost 2 years out, I can eat anything I want. I just choose not to.